feeling so not right

Thanks for the concern from the previous post. I wasnt trying to make anyone worry :) What is done is done, what it meant to be it meant to be, and last what is past is past. So, I should learn how to see things in different ways:)

I've been very emotional these days. Do not know what hit me lately, maybe the falshbacks of my past hurts me badly or maybe something in me doesnt feel right these days. If u ask me how long will this stay, I would say I dont know:) A 22 years old girl like me shouldnt b like that right? sigh :(

该放下的我会放下
然而回忆不断浮现在我的脑海中
我似乎被回忆驾奴着我
好了, 我该往前看....


I will figure my way out, dont push me to hard, bear with me and support me..
That is what u can do :)
I hope u understand I do not want things to be like that
I want things to be right so that we could walk further
I want promises to become true in the future
I want something that suppose to be dissapear, dissapear
I dont wanna deal with it anymore
Apologize is necessary
but say it when u really mean it :)

I had a bad day... a bad bad day....
Everyone cries.....
Heart broken into pieces, yet what can I do?
Love is not demand.....
I never had this feeling before......
I thought u have changed....
I thought u have realized what u have done it isnt work....
I hope u understand why I don't like to be home...
I really wish that I could love u like the way before..but it doesnt work....

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I really hate those hypocrite....really really....
It surrouds me.......
U may look down on me, u may think I do not do anything
but pls mind ur own business
I aint doing nothing...
I just want to organize my life and give myself some time to heal myself
Dont judges a person with how many A they have in their life...
Dont judges how much money they have in their bank....
Ask them are they really happy with what they have rather than all the shit that u have in ur brain....
Dont be so sick...dont be so sick....