thank u

It's been a while.....

I was pretty surprise about the people who read my blog and the feeling they had in their heart, at least I know they read my words and understand my situation. First, I thank u for the people who care about me. I didnt mean to make everyone sad.. I juz wanna find a way to release my feeling that in the bottom of my heart:)

I found out that my dots over my body is getting better, this is what I sure this time. I can see the difference now. When ppl see me they always ask :"how's ur skin?" and I always feel frustrated answering it coz I m not really heal yet even it's been few months and I need to wear long pants and long sleeve shirt all time in SUMMER... isnt that funny?? anyway , I m getting better.....Thanks for everyone who accompany me during the hardest time of my life, from the bottom of my heart:)

I went to Miami on the weekend... It was pretty tired coz we drove there in the morning at 4am and trying to got back here at night.... the whole trip is tired tired and tired.... but it was pretty fun coz we all play in the car..the guys fart so loud in the car and they turn on the a/c and damn it was like hell.... and ofcoz some yelow jokes going on...hahaha...we r all horny man...

I believe that I m walking out of my sadness.... what is done is over and I dont wanna think anymore... Let's make a new memory and colorful life that I always longing to:) I m glad that this sickness makes me know that the importance of my family and my friends...:) Love u all so so so much....U guys r the best in the world...cheers

xoxo,
liwen

it hurts..

当水洒下来的那一刻，很痛，但我还是忍了。。

很讨厌看见自己的身体，但还是要冲凉。。

除了面对，我还可以做些什么？

我并没有逃避，我勇敢的面对了。。

我告诉我朋友，我真的很痛，但我还是忍了。。

因为我知道只有我自己可以治疗自己。。



有时想想，我的身边少了些什么。。

我想有些东西放在心里会好些。。无论有多难，我也要放下。。我没有力气去追逐了。。真的

有时候东西在你身边的时候，你不会了解“它”对你有多重要。。

但，当“它”离你而去时，你才发觉你很怀念。。

在我的立场，它可以是我的皮肤。。但，这句话可以套在很多的事情上。。

我很爱钻牛角尖，也很固执。。

我这才发现，原来的那个你也迷失了。。

**我会勇敢的笑 我会勇敢的哭

我记得我们的约定 但现在随风而去

因为我们都累了 忘了彼此的承诺

没关系 我们会相遇

因为你告诉我说我愿意**

Hurricane Fay is coming tonight. School cancle yesterday because of the hurricane. All the gas station was packed because of the hurricane, all the grocerries shop was packed because of people buying water and some dried food. People seems doing last minute shopping. Anyway, I will just stay at home and enjoy my day... I like rainny day, cause it seems like pamper me in someway...

I promise myself..... I will get better
I will beat the sickness

我的心情

上星期的某一天，我在驾车时看见两道彩虹，这时的我赶快许愿也差点忘了自己在驾车。。嘻嘻。。危险。。然后，我的朋友问我说：“看见彩虹要许愿的吗？”我楞了一下。。哈哈。。蠢吧。。我许的愿和很多年前许的是一样的，没有变过。。

我的契爷的爸爸过世了。。我的心揪了一下。。所以说要孝顺长辈，要爱惜，要珍惜。。最近的我，一直拨电话给妈妈。。好像小孩似的，不停地在撒娇。。我已经好久没这样。。以前的我是那么的倔强。。不肯卸下自己的面子。。我的内心是很小孩的。。我要妈妈的疼爱，爸爸的呵护。。长这么大了还是一样。。我真的很想家。。我也很感谢我的阿姨，是她鼓励我的。。他总是在我的身边支持我。。我知道她很担心我，我到PD时，她特地跑来见我。。有感动。。谢谢你。。我很开心有你。。谢谢你的支持。。

我的妈妈，她很担心我。。我知道我告诉她我的痛处她会很心痛，但是他是我唯一想倾诉的对象。。因为她了解我的情况。。但是，也谢谢他对我的忍耐和了解。。我真的很希望我们能天天在一起。。真的。。没有妈妈的日子，还是少了些什么。。

我的妹妹。。她是一个外冷内热的女孩。。我真的希望她知道我真的很关心他的。。她开心或不开心，我也想知道了解。。这次回去，她陪我一起睡，有他在真好，虽然他每天都嫌说两个人睡很窄。。哈哈

我的男友。。我希望你知道我真的很谢谢你，在我需要人的时候，你会在我的身边支持我。。去年在PD时，他在海边画了个心形写着他和我的名。。我当时很敷衍地看了，然后说：“很肉麻”。。转身就走了。。其实，我的心真的很甜。。但我真的不知如何告诉他。。对不起！然后，我两坐在椅子上看星星。。我不发一语，他就写了一封讯息给我。。告诉我说他爱我。。很窝心。。他对我的忍耐，我的任性，我的无理取闹，他统统忍了。。谢谢你。。我永远让你等我。。永远让你孤单，现在换我停下脚步，换我等你好吗？

我真的很想我的家人。。我想回家。。我想和我的家人渡过我人生中的低潮。。
我的病让我了解很多东西。。我没有埋怨。。我会接受的。。我会好起来的。。
加油丽雯。。

付出型（和藹慷慨，富同情心）
您是外向、快樂、活力充沛、友善、自信、討人歡心，尤其是樂於助人。您自願為他人提供時間、精力及物質，而且您所贈送的禮物總是經過精心挑選。您的世界是以人際關係為主，面對別人的需要和感覺有天生的同理心，能調整自己以迎合他人的需要。甚至更徹底地成為別人想要認識的那種人。您會因應不同的人而有不同的表玩，卻不帶任何欺騙成分。
優點：您會給他人無條件的愛，讓人覺得溫暖。對別人和善，並且經常給別人鼓勵。
缺點：當人們對您的不斷付出不以為意，或是視而不見時，您會表達出強度足以震驚他人的情緒或憤怒。
愛情：專注於一對一的關係，一旦選定和某個人交往，會以精心設計又而深具誘惑的手段攻擊目標，直至「追到手」為止。
您對自己能讓人人都想和您成為情人的能力感到洋洋得意。「我能讓每個男人感覺自己就像個國王，即使只是共處一夜。我能讓他因為我拿酒杯的特定方式，就永遠都忘不了我。若這是一段較為長期的關係，我會深入調查他所喜歡的一切，驅使這個人上癮。」
安定方位：自我型在安定的狀態下您會增強情緒的一面，有從親密關係中抽身而出的傾向。
壓力方位：挑戰型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得專制、易怒，最後勃然大怒。不願遭受控制的慾望會擴大至對自由的渴望，為了維護自己的立場，以平常不曾表現過的方式去抗拒他人的要求。
建意：注意個人的成就及價值告訴別人您的需要，並讓他們為您而做注意「多重人格」的衝突
最渴望：被愛，被別人需要最恐懼：孤獨，不被喜愛最難達到的美德：謙卑 (Humility)最難克服的執念：奉承 (Flattery)

the sisterhood

daddy join...

angus boy

the queen of the lim family

do re mi...

I will find my way

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I think I find my way,
Find a way to forgive and forget,

I will let go,
Let go everything that make me unhappy

Promise myself,
I will be happier

Take life in stride
I will be fine.
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I just want to....

Feel so tired these days...Lazy mood :(
I miss my fansu so much:)
I miss my bed back in Malaysia:)
I miss my sister trying to sleep with me but end up fighting with her:)
I miss my fansu nagging me about my bad attitude=.=
I miss my ah po nagging me the whole day long
I miss my mama keep asking me to take shower
I miss my mom taking me out for shopping and asking me to lose weight
I miss my dad walking in and out in the house....
I miss sharing thoughts with my cousin
and I miss going out with my friends.....
I miss I miss

I miss the life that I had, and I m longing to
I miss the day that I had that wasnt that complicated
I miss the day attaching to someone I love
I miss being with family that I always wanted to

I just want to stay with the one I want, so what's wrong?
I just want to do what I want, so what's the problem?
I just want to listen to my heart, so what you want?
I just want to be myself ....

After 30 hours of flight, I m now in the USA.... What can I say? FINALLY.....

Been so emo these days, do not know what hit me..........

Sometimes I feel myself stupid of doing something, but everything is out of my ctrl....

I did say that I could hardly belive in someone anymore, but come to the end, I m still the one that believe everyone.........

Forget abt the sad things, and move forward liwen!!!

Let's post some pics of me in Malaysia....

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my beloved nanny.....

my sis& meagain:)the sisters