cried

Finally, I went to visit my uncle who was in the hospital for 4 months already :(
My feeling is complicated even I m out of the hospital for few hours already. I feel upset and also happy :) Happy coz he can talk to me, sad coz I can see his loneliness and the pain he's been taking. Man, I shed my tears, trying to hide it but I failed after walking out of his room. Tears keep rolling in my eyes now :( I miss him so much that u will never know

I saw him and I hold his hand asking "How r u ?" he told me by shaking his head and I can see it from his mouth saying that " No good"...At that moment my heart was so sour :( I can see that he was so happy seeing me coming to visit him, and he keep looking at me and wanting to tell me that he miss me too :( He open his eyes and he looks tired and my aunt told me to leave and I hold his hand again telling him that I will visit him again and tell him to take care of himself..and he said :" you too"..and he said "thank u " for visiting him...Ever since he was in the hospital, his son n daughther never came to see him, and I can see the loneliness in his eyes...also, the feeling of wanting his family to be with him but he has no one except my aunt, his wife :( I dont know how can his children do that, arg, I dont care coz I dont know them too... but leaving your parents behind and live ur own life like none of ur business is that your resposibilities being a son or daughter?? I dont giv a fuck on those ppl...damn ..really piss of the fact that they r not coming to see him even though he is so sick.....................idiot.....

I would like to do something for him, but what can I do except seeing him constantly...? He used to tell me some sorta jokes and I always tell him not to smoke and drink and bla bla bla...I miss him i miss him i miss him....

being emo today......I also dont know y..something hit my heart probably....Driving to the school this morning and it was rainny day....everyone rushing to go to school and so do I...... classes are boring and nth is funny these days..I want my VACATION...................

liwen