Liwen 1125

2010-05-21T12:52:00.002+08:00

Let's start a little bit of something here.....
It seems like my life is going smooth for now, so I am appreaciate and I love my busy life now... I feel myself no longer a person who has nothing to do.... It seems like something pops up that make me realize that I shouldnt be so stupid anymore, should get myself a life rather than standing at the same place over and over again...

Something striking me, I guess, it's the time for me to think, to make an evaluation to it....
As I always say, when it ends, let it be, it means nth to me at all .

Tuition seems giving me a motivation , giving me a chance to take back the books that I hate when I was young, it's good ,isnt it? You cant imagine how much I miss my teens life, the life that everyone was naive....

I once heard someone said that, grab the time now and do what u like because you will never come back to the time that you want anymore, untill now, I only understand the importance of it.... but nth gonna change the fact right? live my life now :)

To be honest, I dont see Love as big part of my life now as things change after some time right? It doesnt mean that I m not in a relationship now or I am very sad with my bf, it's just, it is just it, we still have lots of things to do besides love..... sometimes, I feel envy with those who can love bravely :) I wish I have the courage .....

I believe I always longing to something. It's just it's not the time to reveal...... it depends on time i guess, I will have my better life

go on liwen

a tearful post

2010-01-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

It's been a while :) Well, suddenly feel like reading all my old posts that I blogged :( My tears rolling, not crying :) I thought about many things, flashback flashback .....

It's been almost a year that he gone far :( I miss him dearly,do u know? We used to celebrate all the festivals together, and you used to ask me "HOW ARE YOU LIWEN ? " every morning, I miss how u tease me, how u care me, and how u hug me everytime I leave the country..I miss u uncle Ken...if there were chances for me to go back to the past, I would like to go back to the past while u were still there...I would appreaciate u like a diamond, I swear :) but the fact is u r gone too far that I couldnt catch u , so how? did u say that u wanna wait for me to graduate? did u say that u wanna see me marry in the future? I wish to dream u sometimes, i just wanna know if u r fine in the other world...and I would tell u how much I miss u ......

Things been different, I put down the grudge, I treated him nicely...cause I believe he deserves chances.... I saw some improvement, I saw a closer gap btw us.Well, it takes time....

I'm starting to learn how to appreaciate, I thank everything I had or I have... thank god for giving me all these, it is more than enough, I really think that is enough:) thank u .....for last, I would like everyone to pray for uncle Ken for a better life in the other end of the world, I believe, we will meet again .....

Outing with the G.A.N.G

2009-08-23T23:36:00.003+08:00

Start of with a group picture with our usual gang......haha......We went to Sri Hartamas for Korean BBQ as I always nag, LOL, finally we r there for our d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s food. Damn satisfy after all :) Hope our friendship can last forever :)

15/8/2009

2009-08-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

It's been so long that I didnt update my blog. I'm so lazy, I know that :( Hmm, life has been ok, got a job- a job that I m longing to, a job that I enjoy(even I dont get a lot of money from it), but I smile when I work:)

I always thought that friendship is something long lasting, something that I really put it deep down my heart, and yet, when I leave a country, things changed...somehow, my heart ache. Perhaps, I m no longer the one she needs. I always think that we will be BFF untill the day we r not breathing anymore, but....... distance makes it far and far......I am sad in this moment....cause I m losing the one that I always thought one of the best friends in the world :(

Comes to love..... I see things with a broader sight....Perhaps, I really think that love is...........when it ends, it really means nothing at all. So, why dont we make ourselves happy and not to dwell on the past....... life is really short, aint it?

I have so much feeling now yet I do not know how to write all my feeling in this moment. i am numb, maybe..... It is so scary when I see ones changes quickly and I seem like I do not know her anymore yet I was so close so close with ones before.......

I will be fine, I will find a way out...........

feeling so not right

2009-05-16T13:04:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the concern from the previous post. I wasnt trying to make anyone worry :) What is done is done, what it meant to be it meant to be, and last what is past is past. So, I should learn how to see things in different ways:)

I've been very emotional these days. Do not know what hit me lately, maybe the falshbacks of my past hurts me badly or maybe something in me doesnt feel right these days. If u ask me how long will this stay, I would say I dont know:) A 22 years old girl like me shouldnt b like that right? sigh :(

该放下的我会放下
然而回忆不断浮现在我的脑海中
我似乎被回忆驾奴着我
好了, 我该往前看....

I will figure my way out, dont push me to hard, bear with me and support me..
That is what u can do :)
I hope u understand I do not want things to be like that
I want things to be right so that we could walk further
I want promises to become true in the future
I want something that suppose to be dissapear, dissapear
I dont wanna deal with it anymore
Apologize is necessary
but say it when u really mean it :)

2009-05-04T01:57:00.004+08:00

I had a bad day... a bad bad day....
Everyone cries.....
Heart broken into pieces, yet what can I do?
Love is not demand.....
I never had this feeling before......
I thought u have changed....
I thought u have realized what u have done it isnt work....
I hope u understand why I don't like to be home...
I really wish that I could love u like the way before..but it doesnt work....

..................................................................................................................

I really hate those hypocrite....really really....
It surrouds me.......
U may look down on me, u may think I do not do anything
but pls mind ur own business
I aint doing nothing...
I just want to organize my life and give myself some time to heal myself
Dont judges a person with how many A they have in their life...
Dont judges how much money they have in their bank....
Ask them are they really happy with what they have rather than all the shit that u have in ur brain....
Dont be so sick...dont be so sick....

new e -shop

2009-04-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

My new e-shop is now OPEN...please feel free to visit http://www.u-closet.blogspot.com

Hmm.... Been really busy with my e-shop, but everything seems going OK, so i guess that will be it and wish me luck everyone:)

my recent life

2009-04-03T13:45:00.004+08:00

U might find this picture familiar, cause i stole it from my sister's site. Anyway, who cares? I simply find this picture sweet which represent my feeling now :)

I am pretty stressed up these days. Maybe, I am getting used to the freedom I had in the US. I am not really getting used to tell people where to go, what to do, be home earlier, dont spend too much, etc. I used to depend on my own, so I dont need to worry about how much phone calls I made, how my parents would feel when they see the gigantic payment, or how everyone feels about what I did or do. However, life changed, I think I should just adjust my life and also my own thoughts. I really love being ME which means do whatever I want. Somehow, I am stubborn like a cow(according to the bf) and sometimes drive ppl nuts but I think this is the way it is. LOL.

I have been watching a lot of movies these days with my bf. Here is the list
1. fast and furious 4
2.basic love
3.my bloody valentine
4.knowing
5.taken
6.knowing
7.the international
8. 12 rounds

and more but this is what within these two weeks. First of all, Fast and Furious is freaking freaking packed. I've never seen so many FULL HOUSE before on weekdays somemore extra screening at 2am and also selling fast at that time. However, the movie is so so but the actors is damn sexy hot ass. LOL. Basic love sucks to the max cause there is only 5 of us in the cinema. Story is damn bored and during the movie I was actually just playing around with my boy. My bloody Valentine is GOOD. It is a horror movie so be ready for it. There is few scene that freak me out. Knowing is pretty good. Worth to watch it too. Taken and 12 rounds are very very good. U gotta watch it. There is no such a scene that will bored u . The international is real suck, so stay away from it.

I have been hanging out with my boy a lot lately. It is really happy to hang out with him, talking shit and laughing out loud. When I am streesed, he try to make me laugh. When I am sad, he pinch on my face saying that :"it's ok, u will be fine babe." All I wanna say is thank you babe :)

Besides , my e-shop is coming soon. Feel free to drop by when u wanna buy something.
u-closet.blogspot.com

A short post

2009-03-21T13:39:00.003+08:00

I was reading on ppl's blogs in a very freaking boring afternoon and I found this very meaningful to me and I decided to copy it down and share with everyone who is reading my blog:

**life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right and forget the one who don't
Believe that everything happens for a reason
If you get a chance, take it
If it change your life, let it
Nobody said that it'd be easy
They just promised it would be worth it
Do it and never regret of not doing it later**

For some reason, it touches my heart everytime i read this. It gives me the power to walk through my sadness...

Cameron on Jan. 2009

2009-03-17T15:03:00.007+08:00

Hello there, been lack of updating for so long due to my skin infection+depression that hit me. Anyhow, I m getting better and hope things will be fine soon.
So, here I am to blog something before I sick.
Hmm, I went to Cameron Highland with my buddies for 2 days 1 night, juz a lil gathering for all of us :) It was fun and memorable... sayang, me and macy@bidor

walking down the street

me and babe @strawberry farm

raymond and macy

Hmm, just a bit for now, will upload soon

till then

bye

xxx

2009-02-16T20:00:00.002+08:00

I am deep down in shit now, feel so depress.....
I know that I am sick and I hate to be treated like a patient.....I really hate to....
I just wanna do my own thing
Why dont u just leave me alone and let me seek the joy of my life.........
Just l-e-a-v-e me a-l-o-n-e ok?

Uncle Ken passed away, my heart was sinking....
I knew that he doesnt wanna let go right?
He's been taking so much pain and I know that he will be in a better place....
I miss u and I really do....
I will always remember u for everything and u r not alone....
Dont worry, u will not be forget
I love u

Things are complicated and yet what can I do....
except to see it as nothing what else can I do?
I am so tired for everything........so tired.........
Maybe I should just let everything go and be alone for a while, I guess....

How is ur "V" day?
I celebrate on 2/13..... I was angry at first and he stopped the car and he bought me flowers...
My heart melt at that second ...... Thanks.......
We went for dinner at ASIA ONE @ Puchong and we headed to buy ramlee burger and then lil genting for 2 hours for the night view.........
After that, we headed to mamak for a while.....
It was simple yet I feel the love........
Dating him for 8 years I never felt the way before..........

谢谢你,我爱你...

2009-01-15T11:46:00.003+08:00

思绪沉淀了好久,我也好久没有这样的笑过......
没人懂,只有这样我才开心......
虽然有点苦,但我也咬牙切齿......
也好久好久没有见到你开怀的笑......
谢谢你逗我开心,谢谢你听听我的诉说......
谢谢你:)

last day in the usa

2009-01-01T14:34:00.006+08:00

Finally, I left the USA after 3 years of studying there:( I thought I wouldnt have that much feeling but actually I cried:(
Anyway, let the pictures tell the story

will continue soon cause I m about to boarding now

short-term thought

2008-12-22T14:26:00.003+08:00

It was a busy week :)

Went for a dinner at Phocali with Suvath, Sen, Sis, Elise .... After dinner heading to Cold Stone for my fav. cheesecake icecream and then for the movie "Earth Stood" by keenu reeves(if i spell it right)...the conclusion is.............. the movie was boring.....i fell asleep 2 times.....

Life is unpredictable and there is so many things that we've done that we could not change or turn back:) I was depress and life was miserable for me before, but it would be different if I change my point of view. I will be happy, I believe

21 birthday and thanksgiving

2008-12-02T08:51:00.011+08:00

beach jumping

me and the sister

mei, colin, me, elise

on my birthday...3 golden flowers

acting like a kid

we like mirror i guess

bathroom shoot

again

happy birthday liwen~~

As u can see from my pics, my birthday and thanksgiving had just gone like that...I had a wonderful birthday with my friends and sister..... I ate 4 cakes and 3 dinners and 2 luch..haha..anyway, I m happy....For the ppl who remember my birthday, thank u ..for the ppl who forgot..aha...i will remember u @.@

Anyway..... 1 more month to go till I go back to Malaysia...I m gonna enjoy my life here.........

tada..

till then....bye bye

trip to ringling museum,home and the mall

2008-11-17T02:05:00.018+08:00

I've been busy lately because of my sister's coming...been out like nobody else business, spending money like water:) anyway, i m happy:) we took tons of pictures for our outing, and now let me post some of it first coz i m ready for bed very soon ....
Life been pretty good, dont worry bout me...I m going over ..... I m relief.....It aint very sad after all.....I will grasp my own life...
heiman, me and sister

shall we call BFF

sea view in front of Ringling's mansion

oh retarded

what a nice statue!!!

trying to capture something maybe

cool day !!

sisterhood

camwhore all da time

breakfast at broken eggs

my sleeping look

Tada....the end for now

xoxo,

liwen

my 10/ 31 in sarasota, FL

2008-11-03T02:54:00.013+08:00

we r BFF

3 golden flowers+ 2 lil princess

3 rats on haloween party

3 rats and a monster

so cute~~

3 rats and a fly or mosquito..haha

random

sumo and rats and cats

before trick a treat...

hahaha

happy haloween

so sweet, we r rats..haha

I just finish talking with my boy just now.. cried out loud for some reasons..telling him how things gone bad in my life lately... Well, I just couldnt help it...after crying out loud, i hung up the phone saying that I need my own time now....

It's been a while after feeling so empty and lost.... Things been up side down...turning me around and around... but one thing good is....I started learn how to deal with things that I hate to deal with....

I miss home so badly but on the other hand, I dont feel like leaving my friends here that have been so sweet to me.... I really feel thanful to them esp my hei hei, ting ting, yen and shan, yen's parents, hei's parents, seth, jessica, dorothy, happy....bla bla bla....

I feel lost...............

my day

2008-10-22T09:02:00.016+08:00

we are the gang, haha..wedding on the siesta beach

Click Click...bridemaids and the mummies

the man and the girls..

they look sweet

we r trying on the dress

day before the wedding

the wedding on the beach.. i love it

bridemaids and sister forever

we r 3 golden flower

sunset with the love birds

oops...

his name is LI WEN too

sweet

the auntie is so sweet

the second dress we tried

It's been a while since my very last blog, well, I've been damn darn freaking busy..
Test, wedding,dating, homework, discussion, working, party...day and night day and night...
It's good..at least I got rid of something in my mind...

Alright, yesterday I took Seth to a chinese restaurant in Tampa for the food and boba tea:) Well, he was so excited about the Chicken feet and cow stomach..and he kept asking me to order and hahaha..this guailou enjoy alot:) Besides, he got 2 boba teas which is crazy for me..he drank it all in 1 time:) funny... I had a great time anyway...

Ok..about last sunday...my friend's wedding 10/19/2008... and huh...i m the bridemaid..here we go for some pictures...

2008-10-10T12:18:00.001+08:00

Dont ever yell at me cause I aint gonna stand for it

I hate it I hate it I hate it

WTF .........................

Sucks to the max.....................

I L.O.V.E U

2008-09-24T11:05:00.002+08:00

I L.O.V.E YOU

Remember to love ur love ones and tell them I love you

Remember to hold ur love ones when u r with him or her

Remember to walk with ur love ones when she or he is sad

Remember to bear with him/her when she is unhappy

Remember remember

Remember to tell ur parents I love you

Remember to stay with them no matter how old you are

Remember that they will always be with you

Remember to hold their hand when they r getting older

Remember to tell them that they are not old when they say so

Remember remember

appreaciate what you have :)

生路历程

2008-09-24T07:22:00.002+08:00

上星期六，我和希文一同到lido beach& st armands 去走走。。晚上的海边特别宁静，海风轻轻拍打在我的脸上。。迎面而来的风，仿佛在那一瞬间，带走了我的忧愁，留下我平静的思绪。。我们望着天空，数着星星。。很快乐的畅谈我们的人生。。结果是，我们对我们的将来都很“不确定”。。哈哈。。可悲的少年。。

我在想。。人长大到一个年龄时，会遇到一些盲点。。而我。。看到了盲点，却找不到出口。。我已经很努力的往前爬。。终于，让我看见残余的光线了。。
人是很可怕的。。一直陪伴你的人，会忽然的不见。。或者，绝情的做了让你心疼又心碎的事。。我经历过吗？当然。。我被伤得遍体鳞伤。。朋友，情人，亲戚。。统统有。。然而，我除了接受还能做些什么吗？

勇敢的往前爬。。。。。。。
我可以的。。。。。

2008-09-22T10:31:00.002+08:00

**Forever love Forever love

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你

从今以后你会是所有

幸福的理由**

忽然想起这一首歌。。很久了，但却打动了很多人的心。。我是在一个节目里对这首歌起了感觉。。被爱而你也爱他/她的感觉。。

说真的，我对爱也有了麻痹的感觉。。

别问我为什么。。

距离真的很恐怖。。而我也因为距离习惯了一个人的感觉。。

想要有个人吗？想，但我能做些什么。。

兜兜转转我累了。。

你他妈的！！！

哈！让我发泄下吧！！

讨厌做不了决定的男人

更讨厌那些绝情的男人

多情害了说有的人。。我林丽雯说的。。

别说一直说不懂。。你他妈的我也不懂。。

看完了家好月圆。。结局有点草率。。不过都不错。。

戏里的男人都犹豫不决。。然后吃回头草。。

算了吧，我也懒得说。。

xoxo,
liwen

×我头也不望的走了×

those life I had

2008-09-19T09:57:00.022+08:00

It's been a while

I m so free

tufan and me

mitsuhiro and me

my sis was fat

drinking time

group pic with those NOT SO HANDSOME, haha

He is..tada... masahiro akaishi, bestie

tell u what, she loves me so much~my face are red

pictures review

2008-09-19T09:57:00.011+08:00

The daddy and the son with the huge b-a-n-a-n-a

He melts my heart :) With him, I can forget everything:) He is ofcoz important than my bf@.@

me with the huge banana and my dearie

Our all time favourite UNO

We r all happy family

Give me back my life.............

pictures of 9/13

2008-09-17T09:50:00.007+08:00

I m the queen of the day

They r important to me

we r family

our dinner

we r so close!! @.@

主唱：谢安琪

喜帖街

忘掉种过的花重新的出发

放弃理想吧

别再看尘封的喜帖你正在要搬家

筑得起人应该接受都有日倒下

其实没有一种安稳快乐永远也不差

就似这一区曾经称得上美满甲天下

但霎眼全街的单位快要住满乌鸦

好景不会与日常在天梯不可只往上爬

爱的人没有一生一世吗大概不需要害怕

忘掉爱过的他当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他

裱起婚纱照那道墙及一切美丽旧年华明日同步拆下

忘掉有过的家小餐枱沙发雪柜及两任红茶

温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗等不到下一代是吗

忘掉砌过的沙回忆的堡垒刹那已倒下

面对这坟起的荒土你注定学会潇洒

阶砖不会拒绝磨蚀窗花不可幽禁落霞

有感情就会一生一世吗又再惋惜有用吗

温馨的光境不过借出到期拿回吗

终须会时辰到别怕请放下手里那销匙好吗

爱上了这一首歌。。。

I made a decision.... I m giving up!!

untitled

2008-09-15T11:34:00.002+08:00

I put a tittle in my msn "tell me I love you if u do" and I got a lot of messages telling me that they love me, boo hoo..happy:)

I had a wonderful saturday night... a party with loads of fun .... laughing is all around and ofcoz food is Yummylicious

Today, me,elise,yen and shan went to dimsum in Tampa...then headed for a boba tea, then oriental market, brandon mall.... what a day... tired tired and tired...

um............. I m standing up up up everyone......i m absolutely fine..........

Forgive and forget
Loving and caring

What if ur exbf keep coming back to u after hurting u?
I saw a drama and it juz pops up in my mind..
Should we just let go even u still love he or she so much?
I think............
I shall keep it inside my heart

给你的言语

2008-09-13T11:53:00.002+08:00

安全感，你有吗？

我自认我的安全感是零。或许经历过的事情不同吧！越长大，我的安全感就减少。

最近，我们的感觉靠近了。。或许我们的坦诚让我们的关系拉近了一步。。

常常问我什么是安全感，怎么做才叫安全感，其实诚实真的很重要。。

我要的不多。。家人，爱人，朋友都能和平相处就好了。。大家开开心心的聚在一起。。

你说过没有欺骗，没有隐瞒，我全都接受了。。

我也知道你很努力地维护我。。谢谢

我也知道你的痛楚。。多么希望我能够替你分担。。

我的离开，你的孤单，我了解，我知道。。

谢谢你的关心，我会好好的养病。。

你不会很倒霉的。。因为我会为你加油，我会为你祈祷。。

加油

What a day

2008-09-12T10:21:00.007+08:00

I said:"Pls take a picture with me, idol."

He said:" OK"

Phew......cheh.........

3 of us:: left to right:: me, guowei,beloved macy

again with a big smile this time

little lin lin and me

uh babe:)

Boo hoo:) Did I mention that I left my cam in Malaysia? oh lord, I need another 1 I guess. When u r poor like hell, u will have tons of things to buy, right?

It's September already, I told fansu that 2 more months is my birthday then I will b back:) and fansu owe me a surprise on my birthday:) oh, it's too early to say birthday. It's my 21 birthday, pls do remember everyone... 1125

Alright, I m not in da mood to write anything today....

bye muach

3rd person

2008-09-10T11:07:00.002+08:00

When things come to a certain point where there is no solution, what will u do?

So just let it be and be the way it is, isnt it?

I was listening to the radio when I was driving today, and there was a girl who suspect that her bf is cheating on her, so the show is about to find out that whether the bf is cheating or not. Anyway, the result is always.... the bf is cheating. Anyway, that is not the main point, the main point that I want to say is, the girl who call in will always say :"what the fuck are u doing? do u know that u r fucking cheating on me? u r fucking bastard" so there comes the idea of me is that what is the point of shouting out loud and cursing ur bf or whatever it is? isnt that funny when u ask :" what the fuck r u doing?" why most of the people know how to blame the other half but never think of their own ? love is something that from both side... and there is no right or wrong ... before u start a relationship, u will know that u r giving it a try and if it doesnt work then juz break up... right?? so stop blaming and find ur next love... I understand that the girl will get hurt and ofcoz the guy is doing the wrong thing but come on, this is life right? we should accept it and keep our feet moving forward... Things like that happen all the time and I just hope that relationship can settle in a peaceful way... I believe in karma, so what comes around goes around..... fighting aint gonna do anything, it will only make things worse...
I was once pick up my phone and there comes a girl shouting at me saying:"do u know *** is cheating with my bf?" and *** is my ex housemate.... and I said:" so what do u want me to do ?"..and she was so piss of the fact that my housemate is going out with her bf..... and for me, i dont wanna get involve in this situation, i just said:" I dont know anything." come to the end, everything is a mess........ so what is the point of digging the ugliest part of ur love out and hurting urself? just say bye to the guy and move on......

My life is been ok these days...I been skippin some classes....coz i couldnt get up in da morning...lazy ass ....... uh.........

if my post offends anyone out there sorry yeah..........juz dont read it yo...

bye

孤独的映像馆

2008-09-06T08:50:00.002+08:00

看了一场看不懂的电影，

四处张望，

发现别人专注而陶醉，

才忽然明白

　孤独是什么。

这是几米的作品，很喜欢，所以与大家分享

2008-09-03T08:01:00.002+08:00

A：如果我不见了，你会找我吗？

B:我会。

A:那如果你找不到呢？

B:找到天涯海角我都会找的。

很老土是吧？但却触动了我的心。。

好久没有这种感觉。。有种麻痹的感觉。。

上两个月我真的很痛苦，苦到我忘记了我自己。。

当你生病时，你才发觉谁是真的关心你。。

我向所有关心我的人说声谢谢。。

有人对你说过一些让你刻骨铭心的话吗？

如果有的话，你会不会记得你们的约定？

如果那个人离你而去，你会怎样？

我的好朋友曾经背叛我，而她现在也不知在哪里了。。

被她背叛的感觉不好，很痛。。但已经很久了。。

我真的想她。。

心碎的感觉不好。。但我今年又有这个感觉。。

长大不好玩哦。。我想要活在中学的日子。。

有爱，有喜。。

我好想念我的那个他

thank u

2008-08-28T04:38:00.000+08:00

It's been a while.....

I was pretty surprise about the people who read my blog and the feeling they had in their heart, at least I know they read my words and understand my situation. First, I thank u for the people who care about me. I didnt mean to make everyone sad.. I juz wanna find a way to release my feeling that in the bottom of my heart:)

I found out that my dots over my body is getting better, this is what I sure this time. I can see the difference now. When ppl see me they always ask :"how's ur skin?" and I always feel frustrated answering it coz I m not really heal yet even it's been few months and I need to wear long pants and long sleeve shirt all time in SUMMER... isnt that funny?? anyway , I m getting better.....Thanks for everyone who accompany me during the hardest time of my life, from the bottom of my heart:)

I went to Miami on the weekend... It was pretty tired coz we drove there in the morning at 4am and trying to got back here at night.... the whole trip is tired tired and tired.... but it was pretty fun coz we all play in the car..the guys fart so loud in the car and they turn on the a/c and damn it was like hell.... and ofcoz some yelow jokes going on...hahaha...we r all horny man...

I believe that I m walking out of my sadness.... what is done is over and I dont wanna think anymore... Let's make a new memory and colorful life that I always longing to:) I m glad that this sickness makes me know that the importance of my family and my friends...:) Love u all so so so much....U guys r the best in the world...cheers

xoxo,
liwen

it hurts..

2008-08-19T10:21:00.002+08:00

当水洒下来的那一刻，很痛，但我还是忍了。。

很讨厌看见自己的身体，但还是要冲凉。。

除了面对，我还可以做些什么？

我并没有逃避，我勇敢的面对了。。

我告诉我朋友，我真的很痛，但我还是忍了。。

因为我知道只有我自己可以治疗自己。。

有时想想，我的身边少了些什么。。

我想有些东西放在心里会好些。。无论有多难，我也要放下。。我没有力气去追逐了。。真的

有时候东西在你身边的时候，你不会了解“它”对你有多重要。。

但，当“它”离你而去时，你才发觉你很怀念。。

在我的立场，它可以是我的皮肤。。但，这句话可以套在很多的事情上。。

我很爱钻牛角尖，也很固执。。

我这才发现，原来的那个你也迷失了。。

**我会勇敢的笑我会勇敢的哭

我记得我们的约定但现在随风而去

因为我们都累了忘了彼此的承诺

没关系我们会相遇

因为你告诉我说我愿意**

Hurricane Fay is coming tonight. School cancle yesterday because of the hurricane. All the gas station was packed because of the hurricane, all the grocerries shop was packed because of people buying water and some dried food. People seems doing last minute shopping. Anyway, I will just stay at home and enjoy my day... I like rainny day, cause it seems like pamper me in someway...

I promise myself..... I will get better
I will beat the sickness

我的心情

2008-08-11T09:57:00.002+08:00

上星期的某一天，我在驾车时看见两道彩虹，这时的我赶快许愿也差点忘了自己在驾车。。嘻嘻。。危险。。然后，我的朋友问我说：“看见彩虹要许愿的吗？”我楞了一下。。哈哈。。蠢吧。。我许的愿和很多年前许的是一样的，没有变过。。

我的契爷的爸爸过世了。。我的心揪了一下。。所以说要孝顺长辈，要爱惜，要珍惜。。最近的我，一直拨电话给妈妈。。好像小孩似的，不停地在撒娇。。我已经好久没这样。。以前的我是那么的倔强。。不肯卸下自己的面子。。我的内心是很小孩的。。我要妈妈的疼爱，爸爸的呵护。。长这么大了还是一样。。我真的很想家。。我也很感谢我的阿姨，是她鼓励我的。。他总是在我的身边支持我。。我知道她很担心我，我到PD时，她特地跑来见我。。有感动。。谢谢你。。我很开心有你。。谢谢你的支持。。

我的妈妈，她很担心我。。我知道我告诉她我的痛处她会很心痛，但是他是我唯一想倾诉的对象。。因为她了解我的情况。。但是，也谢谢他对我的忍耐和了解。。我真的很希望我们能天天在一起。。真的。。没有妈妈的日子，还是少了些什么。。

我的妹妹。。她是一个外冷内热的女孩。。我真的希望她知道我真的很关心他的。。她开心或不开心，我也想知道了解。。这次回去，她陪我一起睡，有他在真好，虽然他每天都嫌说两个人睡很窄。。哈哈

我的男友。。我希望你知道我真的很谢谢你，在我需要人的时候，你会在我的身边支持我。。去年在PD时，他在海边画了个心形写着他和我的名。。我当时很敷衍地看了，然后说：“很肉麻”。。转身就走了。。其实，我的心真的很甜。。但我真的不知如何告诉他。。对不起！然后，我两坐在椅子上看星星。。我不发一语，他就写了一封讯息给我。。告诉我说他爱我。。很窝心。。他对我的忍耐，我的任性，我的无理取闹，他统统忍了。。谢谢你。。我永远让你等我。。永远让你孤单，现在换我停下脚步，换我等你好吗？

我真的很想我的家人。。我想回家。。我想和我的家人渡过我人生中的低潮。。
我的病让我了解很多东西。。我没有埋怨。。我会接受的。。我会好起来的。。
加油丽雯。。

2008-08-09T09:54:00.000+08:00

付出型（和藹慷慨，富同情心）
您是外向、快樂、活力充沛、友善、自信、討人歡心，尤其是樂於助人。您自願為他人提供時間、精力及物質，而且您所贈送的禮物總是經過精心挑選。您的世界是以人際關係為主，面對別人的需要和感覺有天生的同理心，能調整自己以迎合他人的需要。甚至更徹底地成為別人想要認識的那種人。您會因應不同的人而有不同的表玩，卻不帶任何欺騙成分。
優點：您會給他人無條件的愛，讓人覺得溫暖。對別人和善，並且經常給別人鼓勵。
缺點：當人們對您的不斷付出不以為意，或是視而不見時，您會表達出強度足以震驚他人的情緒或憤怒。
愛情：專注於一對一的關係，一旦選定和某個人交往，會以精心設計又而深具誘惑的手段攻擊目標，直至「追到手」為止。
您對自己能讓人人都想和您成為情人的能力感到洋洋得意。「我能讓每個男人感覺自己就像個國王，即使只是共處一夜。我能讓他因為我拿酒杯的特定方式，就永遠都忘不了我。若這是一段較為長期的關係，我會深入調查他所喜歡的一切，驅使這個人上癮。」
安定方位：自我型在安定的狀態下您會增強情緒的一面，有從親密關係中抽身而出的傾向。
壓力方位：挑戰型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得專制、易怒，最後勃然大怒。不願遭受控制的慾望會擴大至對自由的渴望，為了維護自己的立場，以平常不曾表現過的方式去抗拒他人的要求。
建意：注意個人的成就及價值告訴別人您的需要，並讓他們為您而做注意「多重人格」的衝突
最渴望：被愛，被別人需要最恐懼：孤獨，不被喜愛最難達到的美德：謙卑 (Humility)最難克服的執念：奉承 (Flattery)

2008-08-06T05:01:00.007+08:00

the sisterhood

daddy join...

angus boy

the queen of the lim family

do re mi...

I will find my way

2008-08-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

........................................................................................................
I think I find my way,
Find a way to forgive and forget,

I will let go,
Let go everything that make me unhappy

Promise myself,
I will be happier

Take life in stride
I will be fine.
........................................................................................................

I just want to....

2008-08-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

Feel so tired these days...Lazy mood :(
I miss my fansu so much:)
I miss my bed back in Malaysia:)
I miss my sister trying to sleep with me but end up fighting with her:)
I miss my fansu nagging me about my bad attitude=.=
I miss my ah po nagging me the whole day long
I miss my mama keep asking me to take shower
I miss my mom taking me out for shopping and asking me to lose weight
I miss my dad walking in and out in the house....
I miss sharing thoughts with my cousin
and I miss going out with my friends.....
I miss I miss

I miss the life that I had, and I m longing to
I miss the day that I had that wasnt that complicated
I miss the day attaching to someone I love
I miss being with family that I always wanted to

I just want to stay with the one I want, so what's wrong?
I just want to do what I want, so what's the problem?
I just want to listen to my heart, so what you want?
I just want to be myself ....

2008-08-01T03:59:00.009+08:00

After 30 hours of flight, I m now in the USA.... What can I say? FINALLY.....

Been so emo these days, do not know what hit me..........

Sometimes I feel myself stupid of doing something, but everything is out of my ctrl....

I did say that I could hardly belive in someone anymore, but come to the end, I m still the one that believe everyone.........

Forget abt the sad things, and move forward liwen!!!

Let's post some pics of me in Malaysia....

.........................................................................................................................................................

my beloved nanny.....

my sis& meagain:)the sisters

...in Japan....

2008-07-29T11:10:00.005+08:00

If there is a word to say, I would say THANK YOU
If there is a place to stay, I would like to stay in my heart...
It's been a long long time I did not listen to myself , and there is so many problems that I will never know if I did not discover by myself
Heart broken into pieces, depress, and yet what can I do
I've been avoiding all these problems in the past few weeks..
Tears, drop into ppl's arm
and I would like to tell everyone, I will try my best to cure myself, to face all the problems....
give me some time and I will prove it to you that I m better than before :)

my recent life in malaysia

2008-07-26T02:55:00.002+08:00

It's been a month that I am in Malaysia, some ppl might feel curious that I didnt update anything.... so emo this month that I could never expect in my life time. First of all, I got the so call "soraises" disease which cause my whole body itch and getting the red dots all over my body.. it is ugly and yet I need to accept it:)

And due to the many reasons I feel like coming back to study in Malaysia....... I dont feel like going back to the states and I really feel tired staying there alone, and facing all the problems alone................

2 more days to go and I will back to the states.......may everything become better that time and I will update soon......

bye

...

2008-07-07T18:06:00.002+08:00

I thought things should be like that, but come to the end..NO
There are some times I feel so miserable yet close, but what can I do to make it better?
If there was a lie, then tell me what can I do to accept and deny ?
Or if there wasnt anything that I can do, should I just leave it ?
Or maybe I should just ignore........

my week

2008-06-10T08:39:00.003+08:00

I've been igoring my blog these days coz I m freaking lazy :( Anyway, my summer classes are ending in this Thursday, so everything will b done at that time.. I will just get my ass back to Malaysia for my long vacation...

So first of all, my baby called me from London and he was on his way to Spain.. Oh, so damn jealous.. He just leave me behind again, damn it :( Anyway, I was in the wrong mood and saying something that is not important and not necessary.....

Second, I was holding a hot pot party at my home again on last saturday:( My home is so small but they like it for party for some reason....... After party then gambling......yuhoo..great week...

Third, Sunday morning, woke up at 9... and got ready and drive to Broken Egg for breakfast with Ting.. it was pretty good.... and we headed to got a hair cut:)

We dont take picture that often and I think this is probably the only pic that we have.. at least what I have... hahaha..

alright....bye bye

to my "readers"

2008-05-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

Sunday, Memorial holiday ..tada tada tada tada... It is a long weekend :) I m really happy for it coz I can get away from school and I can sleep more :) Talked to my mom today and I realize that the cost to call her is a fortune. So, I decided not to talk so much since I m pretty broke these days.. Anyway, after having a short conversation with my mom, I found out that my entire family members are reaading my blog, well, it is kinda good coz I dont need to tell u guys what is going on here and also u guys can read my mind as well as my feeling deep down in my heart. Honestly, I dont hav any big dilemma or something not to tell, so ..... haha...

First of all, to my "ah kan " aunt..just found out that her kid is in the hospital.. I know that she is having a tough time , and I hope that she can deal with everything that she is having, good luck to u ..even though I m not calling u all the time but u r always in my heart.. :) I really hope that I can do something for u and if I could pls juz let me know... I will do for u :)

Alright, I dont feel like writing anything now..so I will b updating more of me .......
so stay tune..

xoxo,
liwen

cried

2008-05-23T10:34:00.004+08:00

Finally, I went to visit my uncle who was in the hospital for 4 months already :(
My feeling is complicated even I m out of the hospital for few hours already. I feel upset and also happy :) Happy coz he can talk to me, sad coz I can see his loneliness and the pain he's been taking. Man, I shed my tears, trying to hide it but I failed after walking out of his room. Tears keep rolling in my eyes now :( I miss him so much that u will never know

I saw him and I hold his hand asking "How r u ?" he told me by shaking his head and I can see it from his mouth saying that " No good"...At that moment my heart was so sour :( I can see that he was so happy seeing me coming to visit him, and he keep looking at me and wanting to tell me that he miss me too :( He open his eyes and he looks tired and my aunt told me to leave and I hold his hand again telling him that I will visit him again and tell him to take care of himself..and he said :" you too"..and he said "thank u " for visiting him...Ever since he was in the hospital, his son n daughther never came to see him, and I can see the loneliness in his eyes...also, the feeling of wanting his family to be with him but he has no one except my aunt, his wife :( I dont know how can his children do that, arg, I dont care coz I dont know them too... but leaving your parents behind and live ur own life like none of ur business is that your resposibilities being a son or daughter?? I dont giv a fuck on those ppl...damn ..really piss of the fact that they r not coming to see him even though he is so sick.....................idiot.....

I would like to do something for him, but what can I do except seeing him constantly...? He used to tell me some sorta jokes and I always tell him not to smoke and drink and bla bla bla...I miss him i miss him i miss him....

being emo today......I also dont know y..something hit my heart probably....Driving to the school this morning and it was rainny day....everyone rushing to go to school and so do I...... classes are boring and nth is funny these days..I want my VACATION...................

liwen

earthquake

2008-05-20T11:38:00.005+08:00

dinner prepared by honey elise chan

My tamagochi..When I was shopping at TARGET... feel like buying this to entertain myself...

First of all, I hope everyone donate money for the disaster happened in China. I found a passage from the web about the earthquake and my tears fell......

A mother protected a baby when earthquake happened, she tried her best to save the little baby who is only 4months old..... Sooner or later, they found the baby but the mother is dead. They found out that the mother left a message on her cellphone before she died and she wrote " My beloved baby, if u would have a chance to survive, pls remember that mom would love you forever"....Aww........:( pls...save those lives and appreaciate everyone around u especially your parents :)

I m feeling sleepy again.............

so.....

blog tomorrow if I hav time

pls............

donate money even just 1 dollar........

xoxo

liwen

my unexpected guests

2008-05-19T03:04:00.003+08:00

It's been ages I didnt log in and post up some of my pictures and stuff. However, I discovered something new from my cousin. My very beloved sister, LIMLIMEI, had directed my daddy FRANCIS LIM to read my blog and my very cute daddy directed my kaima to read my blog... I was like ??!@# I didnt expect that also , haha !! and my kaima wrote me a short message from MSN saying that I didnt mention about her. Besides, my cousin also complaining about that so I better post up something here :)

As you know, I m a freaking lazy person and for me thinking is incredibly hard and tired....therefore, I didnt upload my blog until today....

Anyway... I am going out soon for my very 1st meal for today(now us 3:11 pm) and I still havent eat a thing yet..I m going to post something up tonight...................

so..............
I will b back

P.s I love you

2008-05-07T10:38:00.002+08:00

刚刚看完了p.s. I love you。。虽然这部片子是去年的，但是没关系啦。。呵呵！这部片好感动哦。。我的泪就一直流了。。戏里女主角的心爱老公去世了，接受不了她老公不在的事实。。而太过伤心的她好像迷失了方向，找不到他自己。。tada tada tada...then go and watch and figure it out!!!! haha...

I m really bad at typing all the mandarin so I change it to english... I think I hav not only grammar problem in English but also in Mandarin..Darn!!! Cursing will be the only thing that I am talented in.... I m gifted...haha...

Ok, back to the movie...I am thinking the how would it be if that happened to me(touch wood), but why dont you think it also? I mean, it is kinda "taikatlaisi" but well, give urself to think isnt that bad right? Hmm... anyway, I think I will b like her...at least for a short while...:( If he leave me cause he is cheating on me or what, I dont really care but if he die..that will b a big thing to me...coz how can I not love him or miss him in a short while? Therefore, I was crying while I watched this movie... "World isnt fair" agree? Yeah, I do agree.. Think about if everything is fair how can you have what so call "life"..Life should b like a roller coaster...If everyone is the same then there is no fun and no one will work hard in order to get something and no one will really appreaciate.... oh yeah..i m bullshitting again...

School start today..and yeah..8 o clock class..damn sleepy..can even drive...so so so tired and I was trying to open my eyes in class...Class is fucking boring ... Speech class is fine..and hell..I m going to speak in front soon..so nervous o...eventhough I used to speak in front of ppl when I was in Middle school but hell..it was N years ago and I dont wanna face all the "ang Mo'' ar..............help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.............getting sleepy........
it's time to say Bye

xoxo
liwen

upload my week

2008-05-05T10:35:00.008+08:00

Very good quescadia( do not know how to spell) with blue crab and shirmp..so good

My soondofu-pork, yummilicious

Bibimbob for hei hei and her cousin

me, hei hei and kelly

The dishes....

The Korean Restaurant

I never seen someone who play wii like that

First love? Someone asked me that when was my first love, I was thinking deeply and I told her 12..haha.. puppy love.. din even hold hand, just playing around with him:) ALso do not know when we broke up too...haha....

I feel so angry these days , I also dont know why.. My temper is unstable and thank you to my boy who is willing to tolerate with me. For some reasons, I will yell out loud at him if I feel like shouting at him..sorry sorry ar

I am going back in 5 weeks..yuhoo...

Nasi lemak, pan mee....coming soon

see ya~~~

Tagged by Jiunn

2008-05-05T09:29:00.002+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
around 26-28

2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
shopping n eating

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
Hell no.. Then she will not be my close close close friend then..what kinda question is this?

4.What makes you happy when you're in one of your mood?
No stress, sometimes No test will make me happy too...if i m in mood everything will b fine

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Slim down, haha

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Hell no... Impossible

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Family members and my boy(they r the most)

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
1. Hermes bag 2. House 3. car 4. Travel with my family and boy

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I will only confess if I know that he likes me too.. If not no no

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
She is my sister's friend and I dont really know her in person.. According to my sis, she is
sweet to ppl, friendly, and good at singing.

11. What is the dumbest you've ever done?
Too much that I cant really remembber

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
hypocrite, slut and bitch

13.What do you hate most?
Someone betray me

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Backstabbing my friends while he or she knows that I m good with them, that sucks

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
1. My family(parents, nanny and her family, sisters and my boy) 2. School 3. Health

16.What's the song that you're listening?
Rihanna-Take a Bow

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Jealousness

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
1. My boy 2. My friends 3. My family(sister and mom.. dad is always blur blur, haha)

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Cute and still silly billy all time..haha

20. When is your first love?
12 , i guess... ( really puppy love)hahaha

I m tagging : Ppl who view me.... coz I dont hav friends who write blogs....arg!!!!

after test

2008-05-03T12:36:00.002+08:00

Yuhoo.... My Spring semester end just like that...Yuhoo... We went to tampa for shopping on Wednesday.. I know my sister will say something but u know what? I deserve that...God, I m studying so so so friggin hard, who knows??? My period is late, so so so late, so worry now...arg!! coz I never feel that stressed and depressed before.....

On Wednesday, we went to tampa (luckily I wasnt the one who drive) and we went for korean food... I hav some pics but will post up tomorrow....so so so good..after eating we went to shopping.... good too... got myself 2 shorts, 1 dress and 2 shirts.... amount isnt that much but seems like some of my money went somewhere, somehow

I still hav 6 weeks to go until I m back to Malaysia again............
so so so so so so .............looking forward for that.........
My long long vacation......

Shopping@ Saks Fifth Avenue and Party@ Yen's home

2008-04-30T10:12:00.005+08:00

Just got myself key chain and lamer face cream, it is really good :) highly recommend

On Sunday, Yen made us sushi which is the last pic that I took coz LOW BATTERY

Finally, tomorrow will be my last day of final and my summer class will start next week. Gonna go to school tomorrow for the last last last test. Hell, I m exhausted :( So stressed ....

Just upload a new song from Rihanna-take a bow... so so so in love with this song :) Feel like flying when I listen to this song:

Ohh, how about a round of applause,

Yeah, standin' ovation,

Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah.

You look so dumb right now,

Standin' outside my house,

Tryin' to apologize,

You’re so ugly when you cry,

Please, just cut it out.

Don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not,

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),

You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),

Talkin’ 'bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,

This just looks like the re-run,

Please, what else is on.

And don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not (mmm),

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow, ohh.

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),

For makin' me believe that you could be paithful to me,

Let's hear your speech out,

How about a round of applause,

A standin' ovation.

But you put on quite a show (oh),

You really had me goin',

But now it’s time to go (oh),

Curtain’s finally closin',

That was quite a show (oh),

Very entertainin',

But it’s over now (but it's over now),

Go on and take a bow.

But it's over now.

This long long exam weeks make me feel sick.. Besides the GASOLINE is fucking expensive now... arg!!!!

Cant wait to go home to get my one month vacation with no stress, no worry just relax...going back to shopping, sleeping, playing and fooling around... and hopefully I will have enough money to spend when i back to malaysia..haha..:)

I dont really hav friends that write blog, and I wonder why...I juz asked them today and they say: " That is too much work man" others say:" I dont give a shit on that" or "damn, too much "...therefore my friend list has only 2 person...haha...

Friends..if u know me link me kays?? I enjoy reading blog :)

gonna sleep now..so tired..

good night

xoxo

liwen

Exhausted week and retarded pics

2008-04-26T11:25:00.009+08:00

It's been a very busy week for me, final exam week, research paper due, and so many assignments bump in together :( Anyway, next Wednesday will be my last week and I'm waiting for summer to come :)

Went for final for Humanity, and we were supposed to hav those fucking long SHORT ANSWER questions and the prof said:" the printer has some problem, so we are not going to have short answer question." and the whole class went like, "sweet", or "you r the best teacher I have ever met"..haha..he purposely do it for us..love him bits..

The best soup ever :)

And look at some retarded pics while we were in class:)

She is the younger one, and the photo below is her sister :) twins

Retarded :(

Been thinking hard about some issues in my life :) The conclusion is I am asking too much , there is always something that I want out there, my mom always say that if I have some money in my pocket, I will think how to spend instead of saving :) actually yes, I also dont know why :( The more I have, the demand I want for "something" seems stronger and stronger.. Therefore, started to learn how to stop and think about myself.. I should feel lucky coz I have lots of opporturnities that people do not have, doing something that not everyone can do :) Anyway, I still want to get my PLASMA TV..Dont stop me coz I desperately need it :( arg!!!

My life is good..born into a pretty good family..mother and father are still together, pretty ok financial support(not too rich not too poor). Therefore, I learn how to appreaciate :) My dad loves me a lot (everyone knows) and everything I want he will try to get for me. Therefore, there are pretty much things that I want and my parents will get for me except something super expensive such as Hermes purse, Bentleycars, and a castle .hahaha... crazy me... yeah, I m lucky and hell I am....that's what ppl told me...and I m trying to tell everyone that I m not spending money like water...Hell, that is a big False Statement :(

Alright, stop bullshitting... I m done here coz is time for me to sleep, good night babies

My saturday @ crab trap, palmetto

2008-04-20T11:35:00.011+08:00

Today me, elise and sen went out for dinner and we went to CRAB TRAP....

It was a beautiful day, and yet I feel kinda sleepy :(

Dont ask me why, coz I also dont know y... Feel damn stress lately :(

First of all, took a pic from the outside:)

The long long way to the restaurant..

The two statues...haha:)

The "macho sen" and "slow-pace princess"

K..i m ready to write my paper..will blog tomorrow if i m not lazy...

k..more to come

see ya

A week

2008-04-17T11:18:00.007+08:00

Finally, I got my C-A-M-E-R-A.... just got it today.... what to say? Canon is da best ever!! However, the only problem is.. THICK but as long as the quality of picture is good.. I DONT CARE!!! hahaha...I got it with a pretty good price, what can i say?

I have been busy with my assigments, very busy and exhausted, feel overwhelming... God, pls help, so stress :(

These days, my life is pretty boring... My daily routine is exactly the same everyday...

1. wake up at 7:40

2. class

3. southgate mall or home(work my ass off at home and mall)

4. TVB time ( a must in my life)

5. online

6. sex and the city and sleep

boring.... no DINE-OUT coz everyone is busy. However, this coming Sunday I m going out to eat :( someone is paying...haha

I have been listening to a HK radio station while I m driving to school everyday... Need to pay for that for sure and download it to my ipod :( Living in da US and listening to HK radio station.. PERFECT !!!!

Club house

The apartment that I live

Just got a new purse :)

xoxo

liwen

No country for old man

2008-04-10T10:24:00.003+08:00

Prof been asking us to write a report about No Country For Old Man for extra credit ...He talked bout this movie few months ago, and obviously I dont really care what he said coz what I think is this poster does not look nice to me..hahaha..so I just ignore it....

After a few months later(around last week) , he show us this movie in the class...we been using 3 days class to watch this movie and the coclusion is VERY GOOD... I m highly recommended this movie to others.... This movie is so real that u will b so into the whole story line... There is no fancy thingy and one thing I realize .... there is no sound effect.... I'm so glad he showed us this ...

Movie rating: *****

Go watch if u can..it is kinda horrible but the whole story line make u think....it is really interesting :) *tumbs up*

Oops.. and I forgot to say, I booked my air ticket yesterday and I m going back on the June 17...Cant wait to back home :)

arg!! That will b it for me today

ciaoz

xoxo,
liwen

发牢骚

2008-04-09T10:13:00.002+08:00

很闷的一天。。闷不是因为无聊，而是总会有些事碍着我的思绪。。
我的心情好不稳定哦。。
当我拿起以前的相片，总觉得少了些什么。。有了回忆但要回味那种感觉似乎有点难。。问问自己到底做了些什么，我的记忆也模糊了
所以我说感觉会变。。对人对事也都一样。。以前觉得毫不起眼的事物，现在觉得不错。。以前觉得了不起的事，现在觉得还好。。我想是我在长大吧！到了不同的年龄有不同的想法。。
所以说要记录自己的心情，写下自己的故事。。
爱情，有期限吗？
友情，会变质吗？
亲情，有不说再见的一天吗？
答案也好像不确定耶。。因人而异吧
我好像在找寻“永远”的一天
但是世界上没有“保证”的东西
我真的是一个充满问号的小孩。。OMG
我只是想收拾我的心情
希望明天会更好
我的路途会发光，发亮。。

My week

2008-04-07T01:48:00.010+08:00

It's been a long time I didnt update anything here... I am always lazy :( This week isnt tat great, some small little things upset me somehow, and damn it, dont wanna care anymore :(

Last sunday, went to shopping again, bought some thing ofcoz and yesterday..went to victoria's secret and bought a set of very cute bra... so excited :)

Let pictures tell the week of mine..

Elise cook for me on Thursday :) sausage and spagetti

Yen's new home karaoke system, it is exactly like NEWAY now :)

The stupid-e-s-t guy in the world

We went to cold stone for cheese cake ice-cream with roasted almond

Bottles for the sisters

my very 1st COACH, hmm..i m not a big fan of COACH and hmm... I bought it coz the price is too good...hahah....

That will be almost a week for me..... tomorrow is a brand new week...arg....school again...

bye

xoxo
liwen

My memories

2008-03-30T12:35:00.019+08:00

I was trying to organized my file in my computer, suddenly I saw my Long-lost pictures.. Oh man, do u know how happy I am right now this second:) *jumping up and down* I tot I deleted it already but hell no, I didnt. God bless me :) hahaha

I direct my mom to come to read my blog ( since she always wanna check my life and also wanting to know my secret such as peeping my diary).. She can know watever she wants coz I m a superb good girl in da world :) Besides, I also direct her to go to my sis's blog..haha... who cares man!!! Back to the pictures topic, I found that my mum was pretty ugly that time(dont kill me) with the short hair...hahaha..... and find out that she looks much prettier with long hair...hahaha...this is the truth AH MAO , accept it....

My dump ass sister , limei lim....

I know I m stupid, but bear with me pls..haha

Celebrating our first christmas eve together in the usa back in 2005 with my aunt and uncle except my dad

My another PRETTY sister, qiqi

I love this picture :)

In tampa, FL (thai temple)

I m crazy...

She is my bestie in the usa (thanks yuri ito)

She is calling back to Japan

Besties in KL

My beloved baby, love her bits

babies in Melacca(N years ago)

The so called famous chicken riceMy lovable group, without u guys I m incomplete...

A walk to remember..muacks

It's my birthday :) 1125

Lastly, he is the one that accompany me from 14 to current...thanks for everything baby, u know how much I appreaciate u !!!

Jabbawokees.. love-em

2008-03-28T11:54:00.006+08:00

Just finish watching The America Best Dance Crew and I m so happy that Jabbawokeez is NUMBER 1 !!!!!

I scream and I got so so so excited!!!! They made my day even though I am about to sleep... I was thinking to do my HUM but I am damn sleepy and for me to read those GREEK poems or those and I need to figure out how to write it are too tiring and I give up...........

Haha, had some nice meal, will post my photo tomorrow :)

Good night

Daddy's Birthday

2008-03-27T08:49:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy Francis Lim :)

Send him a sweet msg when I was in class today.. He is officially 48 already... Wish him live healthily and happily....

Nothing speacial today, done with my blog... Put in loads of new stuff.... some nice music, chat box....

I skipped class today for McDonald....so hungry today and me and my friend just drive to the nearest McD and had our McD...very content...hahaha...

My day was pretty sweet...........

xoxo
liwen

A short post

2008-03-26T00:58:00.008+08:00

Before telling how bad I was in the past few days, let me introduce 2 nice song, at least is nice for me Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis and No Air-Jordin sparks feat Chris brown...*tumbs-up*.. both are must listen songs....

Feeling damn stress this whole week. Eater on Sunday but I have to study like hell. My Sunday was awful:( The only thing that cheer me up on Sunday was going to my friend's home for Easter party and egg hunt. After 4 hours of partying, I need to zoom back home and stick my butt on my chair and STUDY. Hell, I was cursing so much when I was studying.. Why do all the teachers giv test on the same day? Arg, and finally finish my account paper today:( I have done what I know and giving out everything in my small lil fishy brain, yucks!!!!

Away from test, I need to be a Vegetable for a while.... I been usuing up all my energy and I can feel my brain squeezing so hard in the past few days:) Period supposed to visit me around this time and arg, havent vist me yet!!!

K, stop complaining and continue doing VEGE now...
see ya

Happy boy and me!!

2008-03-22T09:50:00.011+08:00

In my room with Happy boy, isnt he sweet?

He is going to sleep:)

Let's play..and pose!!

Happy Boy

In da living room with my dear:)

cute cute

Kissy kissy...

Ok..Finally put in some pictures lu~~~ Isnt he cute? I miss him so much already :) Cant wait to see him again :(

Just got back my econ test, darn it!! I mess up the test.. I though I can manage it well but then it doesnt seems like I am doing good:(

Good friday and I have class today.. Mum called me while I was driving, and she sounds like she could not believe I hav class. Seriously, I dont care about good friday, haha!!

Besides, I was watching "the America Best dance crew" , Damn excited man!!! Jabbawokeez is the best, they dance so smooth that I just so so so inlove with them:) Love it, will support u guys always:) It is basically a bunch of hip pop dance groups that compete with each other and the winner will get USD 100,000... I cant deny that I love 'em so much... go and check it out and u will freak out!!! http://youtube.com/watch?v=SKnpRd3rE7U

Best ever!!! Love u guys ...muacks

Bye bye

poem and LaMer

2008-03-20T10:45:00.007+08:00

By: Dylan Thomas

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray
Do not go gentle into that good night
Rage, rage against the dying of the light

Prof ask us to study this poem and I found that this poem is suitable for my uncle, isn't it?
Pls fight for ur life, I know that u r getting better!!! I will pray for you:)

Creme de La Mer!!! Hoho..almost finish my moisturizing cream, this looks good for me!! seems powerful yeah..wanna get this soon....yuhoo~~ since my blog is so dead just wanna post something up here

Oh..My happy boy left Sarasota already..He is on his way back to Las Vegas and Korea and he will not come back anymore, sobs sobs..I will miss u Happy boy...

Gosh...tuff week again... loads of homework coming up...I m gonna burst myself!!!!! I m exhausted....DAMN IT

kays...that's for me so far..I think I need to get a camera since everything here is so interesting and my cellphone does not help at all..and my sister took my camera already...so..aih~~ she is my sis, what to say? somemore asking me to buy her this and that......

nway...gtg..

xoxo,

liwen

2008-03-16T12:40:00.009+08:00

It's 12:40 a.m. now!! Anyway, kinda in a bad mood now coz spring break is OVER!!!! It is so freaking fast that I could not believe it .. :( I just hope that I can go home soon to meet my family and my BABY :) OUCH

Anyway, been keeping myself posting something here..wanting to put some pictures but it seems like I m so lazy and ofcoz ...just forget abt it....The purpose for me to post here is to let my mom & sis know that how's my life going in the usa.... it doesnt mean to show off anything or what..anyway...I DONT CARE!!!! if u like to read just go ahead..if not then fuck off...i m here to blogging not listening what ppl say and comment...

OK..life's good and I m saving money to go SHOPPING coz i promise my sister to sponsor her shopping's fees so i m gonna refrain the hell out of shopping...Kays, i m rude i know but who cares????

Been shopping 2 times a week in the spring break....me and my "shopping partner" spent the last 1 1/2 hour shopping before the mall close...

I got 1. swarovski earing
2. pants & shirts from Forever 21 and Hollister
3. sandals from Mixx
4. eye serum from Loccitane
5. Shampoo from Victoria secret ( the VERY SEXY )
6. accesorries ( necklace)
I think that will b it...but seems like I like i spent a lot...hmm whatever..who cares?? I m not going to be stingy to myself right?? I should love myself more than anyone else in the world including my baby boy...

kays... life's good and peace yeah

xoxo
liwen

For Beloved Ken :)

2008-03-08T11:33:00.004+08:00

God Bless You!! Pls Wake Up if u can hear me!! I miss u when u r not around, u always told me what to do and what not to do...and i always listen to u ....so, let me tell u what to do this time and I just want u to live happily and heathily....so..wake up and show me.. U still have to wait for my graduation and u need to walk with Doris for another 17 years...Do u remember? I dont care u remember or not, just wake up and show me ur courage and I know that U want to wake up and show me, isnt that right?

I shed my tears and I hope u understand...even I m not going there to see u everyday, but u r always with me ... so i m praying for u :) Pls Pls Pls...Dont leave us here:) I need u badly:)

Old time .... Goodies

2008-03-04T11:42:00.004+08:00

Gosh, suddenly miss CHKL so much:) It's been almost 4 years that I am away from CH...I remember all the things I did in CH..People always say that University is the H-a-p-p-i-e-s-t ever time but I personally think that high school is my Happiest time in my life:) It doesnt mean that I do not like my schoo life now, is just I really love surrounding with my Local Friends speaking broken cantonese and mandarin...eating nasi lemak, milo ice, teh ping instead of eating so called chinese food, pasta, sandwich, chips, and ice tea... I want to go to KLCC using Taxi instead of driving by myself going to TAMPA ... I wanna be young I wanna be kids I wanna be baby:(

I m turning 21 soon and I just could not believe that I am adult already:) I can do whatever I want..Somehow, I just want to stay at age 16..... receiving pocket money from parents, go home eat and sleep....how nice:)

I miss my high school life......I wish I could go back to CHKL and wear my school uniform again to go back to my class with my old classmates:) Go to canteen with Macy...Nasi Lemak...Gosh... I miss it so so so much:(

I really miss it.....so much...my dearie school

my fav

2008-02-25T13:31:00.006+08:00

I just wanna say 恶作剧之吻2，赞!!!

I m hooked on this taiwanese drama .. Gosh, *tumbs-up*

The whole main point are...so FUNNY and so SWEET...

I am a tvb fans and for some reason this is the taiwan drama that I really like ..:)

so.........go watch!!!

xoxo

liwen

my gloomy month

2008-02-24T06:32:00.003+08:00

It's been a tiring week for me:) My uncle is in ICU for 2 week already, he's been dangerous, normal and back to dangerous. His condition is not very stable and everyone is so worry bout him. He fell down in front of his house and I am the one who saw the blood that was on the floor:( I was scared stiff...I called my aunt and she went to the hospital as soon as she can..
Well, it's been 2 weeks that my uncle fell. For sure, I m worry but what else I can do for him:( I m stressed by my fucking HOMEWORK and I m stucked with all my assignments and tests.... May God bless my uncle and let him live happily and healthly with my aunt:)

Ok..switch topic.. Went to Yen's home yesterday for fixing the Pool table that he bought... It is so heavy that we need 4 ppl to lift it up...Along with my PERIOD,I m exhausted:(

Arg..keep saying ON DIET but cant really make it for some reasons..aih~ I m piss :) y ? Y ? Y??I should zip my mouth and refrain from eating all the food such as rice, snacks......couldt resist when friends rang me up and said:" Hey liwen, do u want to come over to my house and have dinner, I m cooking XXX today." and I was like :" arg, Ok.i will b there in few hours." ...Then, tragedy happend..I ATE...

Today, I m going to watch Step-up 2...yeah..i been struggling for this movie and I m in love with the music and the freaking good dancing skill of that movie....and I love the actors too....*tumbs-up*

Ok..gonna stop here..
ciaoz....Miss my baby boy so much..love u

My wishes

2008-02-17T04:39:00.006+08:00

Went through ppl's blog and ofcoz i steal it, haha, juz wanna share with everyone, a very common mistake for every couples or married couples... tears were rolling in my eyes and i feel the power of love again, gan-ba-te....

離婚協議書

嫁給這個男人五年了，我不知道我是否還愛他，記得剛新婚的時候，早晨時必定會在他懷抱中醒來，我總是紅著臉不敢說一聲早，怕嘴裡的口氣弄皺了他的眉，漱口杯與牙刷堅持要和他用同款不同色，擺在一起看才有夫妻的感覺。我會幫他打點上班的衣物，什麼襯衫配什麼領帶，經過我的審美才准他穿上身。起了床到餐桌上，為了他的健康，我每天變換不同花樣的早餐，晴朗的天可能是培根蛋加上烤土司，有些下雨的話，或許來點小米粥搭醬瓜鹹蛋，要是陰天，不如就吃些外頭的燒餅油條和豆漿，招式用到我變不出新把戲，可是我樂此不疲。除了當一個賢慧的妻子，我亦毫不掩飾對他的熱情，「我愛你」是每天恭送他出門上班一定說的話，然後附加一個親密的吻，即使他大多時候只是淺淺一笑，也足夠我高興個老半天。但是，五年過去了。我相信還不到癢的時候，可是到底是什麼改變了我和他的互動呢？早晨起床，他的位置往往已空蕩，只能由皺褶的床單證實他確實存在過，即使他偶爾睡過了頭或者小賴一下床，也絕對是急急忙忙由床上跳起來，匆忙的梳洗著衣。我已經快忘了被他擁抱迎接朝陽的感覺，盥洗室裡的漱口杯，在幾年前被打破後，再也找不到一模一樣的，而另一個也因為掉到馬桶裡，所以也換了新的。五年內，牙刷已換了不知幾支，甚至有時我們睡迷糊了，還會用上同一支，什麼口氣的問題都不需要掩飾了，是否一樣顏色，一樣款式，他說這些根本不重要。因此，洗手台上Hello Kitty和小叮噹圖樣，漱口杯左右對峙，小叮噹的杯裡插著一支綠色牙刷，是我的， Hello Kitty則是空的，因為他前一陣子已改用電動牙刷，擺在架子上。分屬兩個不同故事的漱口杯，以及位於兩個不同位置的牙刷，彷彿在嘲諷我們的夫妻關係，漸行漸遠。　因為他出門的時間早，打點他的衣著已經不再是我的事，他自己會搞定。早餐呢？很久沒有一起吃了，我同樣不必費盡心思去想菜單、查食譜，反正沒人賞光，更不用說「我愛你」這句話，還有熱情的早安吻，他無福消受，而且現在說起來也有些矯情了。仔細想想，五年來，他沒有說過一次「我愛你」，一次也沒有。　　我和他相聚的時間，嚴格上來說是從晚上七點開始，也就是他下班回來之後，如果他加班的話，那時間可能要延到十點、十一點。剛結婚的時候，我為了他去學烹飪，「要抓住男人的心，先抓住他的胃」，我深信這個鐵律。所以，一些餐館名菜常出現在我們餐桌上，宮保雞丁、五更腸旺、蔥油雞、東坡肉?等。見他吃得高興，我也開懷，雖然不全是我愛吃的，但是他愛吃就好。飯後，我們會依偎在沙發上看電視，我陪他看新聞，聽他評論國政、批判社情，他陪我看八點檔，聽我調侃劇情、大哭大笑。所以我知道行政院長、立法院長是什麼人，他也知道當紅的李世民是誰演的。我沒有料到的是，五年的時間可以改變這一切，烹飪班我可以說是半途而廢，不知道從哪天起，他開始干涉我做菜的方法，宮保雞丁他不喜歡太多辣椒，五更腸旺他開始抵制，蔥油雞叫我別淋油，連滷東坡肉要放多少醬油，他都有話說。我做的菜漸漸變得簡單，烹飪班也不想去了，有時候一盤炒青菜、貢丸湯和皮蛋豆腐就打發掉他，他反而沒什麼意見。我想，我抓不住他的胃。隨著他加班次數的增加，我們甚少在一起看電視了，除了現任總統是陳水扁，我對於國家大事可說一無所知，而他，問都不用問，台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰他絕對不可能知道。夫妻之間開始言不及義，他對我說的話，大多都是「不用等我」、「早點睡」，我跟他說的話，也幾乎是「你回來了」、「菜在電鍋熱著」。我們沒有相同的話題，沒有相同的興趣，除了「夫妻」名義上的聯繫，我們的交流空泛的可憐，比普通朋友還不如。多可笑的夫妻關係，不是嗎？　　婚前，我們曾描繪著未來的願景，他說要生兩個孩子，先男後女，哥哥可以保護妹妹，我卻認為應該先享受一段兩人生活，生孩子的時情倒不急於一時，只是我不想壞了他的興致，並沒有說出口。婚後一陣子，他很積極的和我「創造宇宙繼起之生命」，他想要孩子，從他不戴保險套的行為可以看得出來，可是我還不想要，又怕他不高興，於是我背著他吃避孕藥。記得那時，他還興沖沖的帶我到醫院探視一名女性朋友，她剛生完一個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，神色萎糜的躺在病床上。我忘不了他隔著一塊玻璃看新生娃娃時，眼中綻放的神采，可是我更忘不了，那位女性朋友用著虛弱的語氣告訴我，她整整痛了一天一夜，才求醫生由自然產改為剖腹產，我更不敢生小孩了。五年後的今天，他似乎已經放棄生小孩這回事，畢竟只有他一頭熱是沒用的。　　可是，待在他上班之後空洞的房子裡，我突然覺得生個孩子也不錯，至少屋子裡會熱鬧點，我的寂寞，也會少一點。他早就在數年前就開始用保險套了，我不清楚是什麼讓他改變心意，不過這也鬆了我一口氣，我對避孕藥似乎過敏，不論換什麼牌子最後都落得一個水腫的下場。我猜他六百多度的近視加閃光，應該看不出我水腫前和水腫後有什不一樣，重點是他的保險套解決了我一個大麻煩，同時又帶來另一個新煩惱。我現在想要一個孩子了，他卻似乎不想，我不知怎麼跟他開口，更別提他頻繁的加班，晚上常累得倒頭就睡，如果我再開這個口，似乎變相增加他的壓力。兩個人之間，已經夠低潮了，不需要再增加一個會引起衝突的話題。　　在我們戀愛的時候，他很喜歡帶我到淡水，坐在河堤旁看落日，沿著碼頭走一遭，可以吃到不同口味的各式小吃，淡水的海產頗富盛名，他似乎是識途老馬，總知道哪家是最道地的。有時候，他帶著我坐渡輪到對岸的八里，那裡熱鬧的只有一條路，賣的全是孔雀蛤，兩個人可以吃掉一大盤，還覺得意猶未盡。他也會和我騎雙人腳踏車沿著淡水老街騎到淡海，再由淡海騎回來，沿路的風景不算十分迷人，但有種質樸的味道，兼之海風鹹鹹的打在臉上，我很享受這種氣氛。當然，坐在腳踏車後座的我三天打漁兩天曬網，心情好的時候才踩兩下，他明知我偷懶，還是賣力的踩，我很懷念，真的即使過了五年，那段回憶仍然歷歷在目。婚後到淡水的次數，除了新婚那一陣子，幾乎屈指可數，近兩、三年更是一次都沒去過。每到假日，他不到中午不會起床，我見他這麼疲倦，當然也不會煩他帶我到處走走。假日照理說，我和他應該可以有些交集可是他累，我只能自己找事做，和在上班工作的朋友出門逛逛街，聊聊是非，也順便埋怨一下他。至於在家睡覺的他，午、晚飯，自己解決吧！他不知道，在前幾個月，我耐不住無聊，自個兒坐捷運到了淡水。果然，太久沒有去了，那裡已經變成一個我完全不認識的地方，河堤旁的小吃攤不見了，全部集中在捷運站附近，過去我和他看夕陽的地方整修成一條長堤，僅供散步，路面變得乾淨整潔固然是好，但是收藏著我和他美好記憶的地方，消失了。沒有他的帶路，我找不到道地的海產店，找不到好吃的小吃，自己一個人也騎不了雙人單車，但我驚訝的發現，淡水多了一個漁人碼頭，可以坐公車過去。漁人碼頭，他的腳步沒有踏上過，我先了他一步，這是沒有他，只有我的經驗。到了漁人碼頭邊，風景美復美矣，卻有種人工雕砌的做作，我以為花了幾百元搭乘藍色公路可以到對岸八里，就像渡輪一般，但那失了古風的遊艇卻繞了一大圈後又開回原點。除了顛簸的船身搖得我頭暈目眩，我記不起來什麼美麗的風景，連孔雀蛤也沒撈到一粒，淡水變了，我和他的回憶，也變了。某個早上，我特地比他早起，煮了頓睽違已久的豐盛早餐給他。然後，沒有第三者，沒有爭吵．我遞出了離婚協議書。那是我第一次看到他那麼震驚的表情，如果那天是愚人節，我想我成功了。可是，我不會開那般惡劣的玩笑，他知道我是認真的，他沒有像一般男人一樣，暴跳如雷，開始數落女方的罪狀，也沒有哭哭啼啼，跪下哀求我留下，他只是極力冷靜自己的心緒，默不吭聲的接下協議書，開門，上班，一如往常。他或許也察覺我們的夫妻關係到了一個瓶頸，也打算仔細考慮離婚的可行性，他近幾年的疏離，我沒有流下一滴眼淚，可是他這天的冷漠，幾乎傾盡我五年的淚水。我有些後悔，這後悔逐漸蔓延，以心臟為一個起點，通傳至我的頭頂及腳趾。但後悔又如何呢？不快刀斬亂麻，也只是拖著一個平淡如水的日子，兩個人乾耗。我不知道自己對他的愛剩多少，更不清楚他對我的愛剩多少。嫁給他之前，我就知道他沈默寡言，嫁給他之後，自以為能改變他的我，並沒有改變他多少。我的愛，還不足以改變他，他的愛，亦不足以為我改變，這大概是關鍵所在。柴米油鹽醬醋茶會摧毀愛情的甜蜜，我嚐到了，但這卻是用五年換來的教訓。趁現在，沒有孩子，沒有牽絆，我也不貪圖他什麼，該是離婚最好的時機吧！抖著手在離婚協議書上簽下名的我，到之後他出去幾個小時了，我仍然在發抖，這是一種未知的惶恐，我等他給我一個結果。　　他冷淡了我五年後，又凌遲了我七天。從離婚協議書交到他手上之後，整整一個星期，他不與我說一句話，也睡了七天的沙發，每天仍然照常上下班，除了更加冷淡，我感覺不到他的喜怒哀樂。那張協議書，就算扔到垃圾筒裡，還會有觸動垃圾袋的聲音，可是他，一點聲音也沒有，我懷疑他根本不當一回事，一段時間不理會我，只是在看我會不會自己忘了離婚這回事。我受不了了，他到底要怎麼做呢？連離婚，也要離得這麼漠然嗎？然而，七天之後的他，結結實實嚇了我一跳，一早，我聽到他在客廳起床的聲音，隔著門板聽不真切，我卻一直等不到他出去上班的關門聲。一陣乒乒乓乓的金屬撞擊，取代了他一向安安靜靜的作息，我終於按捺不住起身察看，卻在開門後，聞到了一陣食物的香氣。「起床了嗎？吃點蛋捲。」他笑著，如新婚時我吻他之後那般淺笑。我心裡狠狠跳了一下，原以為古井不波的情緒，因他久違的體貼，而起了絲絲漣漪。他還是那麼輕易的，可以撩動我的心，我不清楚他怎麼可以混到九點、十點還不去上班，他接收到我的疑惑，也只是淡然一笑，身上簡單的服裝一點兒上班的氣息都沒有。可能他，也有工作疲乏吧！也可能他要宣判了，關於那張離婚協議書，看他神色自若的樣子，我默默吃著早餐，幻想著等一下他會說的話。他會不會乾脆的就離婚了呢？還是在我面前撕了協議書呢？不可否認的，我的心，傾向後者。「我升上經理了。」他的第一句話，出乎我意料，下一句話，卻馬上進入重點，轟得我措手不及，「工作上的事告一段落，現在要好好處理家裡的事。」工作是排在家庭之前嗎？我苦笑。　「工作安頓好，我才能給妳安定的家。」他像在解釋我的疑惑。「所以，告訴我為什麼要離婚呢？」他終於問了，臉色變得嚴肅。他從來沒有用過這種質疑的口氣與我說話，望著他難得的厲色，我竟一句話也說不出來。　　「妳覺得我冷淡妳了嗎？」轉眼，他的態度忽而又變得自嘲，弄得我丈二金剛，「我就知道妳一個人在家老是胡思亂想。」我和他長談了一整天，數個小時的談話，有五分之四的時間我是在哭的，因為我覺得自己犯了一個滔天大錯，可是有些事，沒有那張離婚協議書，我永遠不會知道。他說，五年來，他確實每天都是抱著我醒來，只是後來他工作忙，起床時間變早，而我仍沈睡著，不知道罷了，有時他還會親親我的臉，看著我貪懶的睡顏，他不忍心叫醒我。而擺在盥洗室的漱口杯，他根本搞不清楚小叮噹是他的或Hello Kitty才是他的，他以為粉紅色是女孩子的頻色，所以他一直用著小叮噹的嗽口杯。原來，我們一直在無形間，做著親密的唇齒交流，可憐了Hello Kitty，擺在那兒沒人用，成了個裝飾品。早餐，他吃的都是7-11，他承認很想念我做的早餐，可是他不好意思要我每天做給他，他知道我會擠盡腦汁變花樣，他捨不得看我太累。「我娶妳，是希望妳享福，不是要妳來當女傭的。」從他這句話開始，我便止不住眼淚。提到他的衣著，他更是笑我的傻，他看得出來我會為他添新衣服，按顏色花樣在櫃裡整整齊齊的分類擺放，而新婚時期我常幫他搭配，久了他也知道我的喜好，什麼領帶配什麼衣服，他是為我而穿。至於熱情的早安吻，每天他早在我熟睡間給我了，我卻兀自鑽牛角尖，認為他不需要我的吻。　「你為什麼從不說你愛我呢？」我噙著淚水問他。　「我以為妳知道，否則我們為什麼結婚呢？」他理所當然回答。是啊！我知道，我一直都知道，不然我不會嫁給他的，可是既然知道，我又何必強求他說出來呢？女人都是需要一些愛語滋潤的，我想這就是理由，看著我控訴的眼光，我想他也知道理由了。　　「妳做的大菜，很好吃可是那些菜費工夫，也不全是妳喜歡的，所以我寧可妳做些簡單的菜，最好是妳也喜歡吃。」他一句一句的解釋，又讓我掉了一缸淚水，「妳不喜歡吃辣，因此我要妳少放辣椒，妳不吃內臟，那我也不吃，妳怕胖，所以料理時我希望油加少一點，醬油鹽份高，吃多腎臟負擔大，為了妳我健康著想，調味即可，不必加太多。」只要是我煮的，他都喜歡，想想每次準備食物給他，他沒有一次不是吃光的，到底為什麼我會覺得抓不住他的胃呢？所以，我也抓住了他的心嗎？另一件令我驚訝的事，他真的知道台灣霹靂火的男主角是誰，即使猜得不完全正確。「是劉文聰嗎？還是那個李正賢呢？晚上在公司加班，同事都會開電視來看，所以我多少也知道一點。」他撫去我臉上淚痕，笑問：「妳也在看嗎？」　「嗯。」我又想哭了，我真是小覷了那個節目的收視率。　「當上經理之後會比較少加班，那我們就一起看。」他說得輕鬆，我卻鼻頭一陣酸楚。我在意的，其實不是看什麼節目，管他行政院長、立法院長是誰，沒有他在身邊，看什麼都索然無味。我發現，只要願意，兩個人什麼事都可以談，連我跟他解釋台灣霹靂火的劇情，一路聊到整容話題，他也聽得津津有味。是我，是我封閉了自己，以為他不願意聽我說話、不願意對我說話。他心疼我一個人在家裡，聊公司裡的事怕悶壞我，又見我一副不想搭理他的樣子，他每天只能摸摸一鼻子的灰。無論他跟我說什麼，我都是愛聽的，可是我現在才讓他知道，夫妻兩浪費了幾年的時間在這種誤解之間打轉，他活該，我也活該。　「我很少看新聞，都不知道國家最近發生了什麼事。」我這句話出口得有些抱怨。　「好，我以後每天當妳的新聞台。」他溫柔的笑了。聊到生孩子的事，他先是一陣默然。「我想生一個孩子。」這時候，我有勇氣說出口了。　　「我以為妳不想，剛結婚那一陣子，妳不是一直吃避孕藥嗎？」難得聽到他有些怪罪的語氣。進一步了解之後，我才發現，他一直知道我在吃藥，或許是我哪次把藥隨便擱在化粧台上，被他看到了，他徹底了解我不想要孩子。　　而他也知道，我吃完藥隔天會有水腫的現象，身子骨纖細的我，一雙腳腫得跟象腿一樣，也只有我這種人的鴕鳥心態，才會認為他不會發現。後來我養成習慣將藥好好放在抽屜中，他以為我不再吃，怕身子水腫難受，所以他戴起保險套，說來說去，還是為了我。「妳又水腫了嗎？一直哭個不停，是想把身體裡的水逼出來嗎？」他居然敢揶揄我，免不了得到我飽以老拳。他還是想要孩子的，聽完我說想生孩子，他眼下興奮的光芒大大的告訴我這一點。只不過，那抹光芒在閃爍之後隨即斂去，他又正襟危坐的問了我一個問題。　「妳真的想生嗎？」　「想啊！我一個人在家好無聊。」　「只是因為無聊嗎？如果一個人在家無聊，妳想出去學東西、去工作、和朋友去逛街，我不會阻撓妳。」「你不是也想嗎？」我生氣了，縱然淚眼婆娑沒什麼說服力。他開始說起那個四千兩百公克的巨嬰，原來那名女性朋友的經驗不僅嚇到我，也嚇到他了。他不希望我生孩子還要受極大的痛苦，什麼剖腹產、自然產，他一點概念也沒有，只知道一定會很痛，他明白我怕痛，所以他捨棄了生孩子的想法。　「我不管，我要生。」明瞭了他的想法後，我更希望替他生一個孩子，身體裡流著我和他血液的孩子。　「那就生吧！」他悄悄的在我耳邊說了一句令我臉紅的話。「你這麼有精力，不是上班很累嗎？」我狐疑他話裡的真實性。經他解釋，我才恍然大悟，就算工作累，他偶爾也有慾望，有時晚上摟著我，又看我睡得香甜，這種看得到吃不到的痛苦，他只能鬱鬱的悶在自己心裡，面對他的心意，我，真的無言了。　　在我像兩顆水蜜桃的雙眼略為消腫後，他催我換衣服，帶我出門。　已經好久沒和他一起出遊了，在兩人間的冷淡破冰後，坐在他身邊竟也給我當初戀愛的感覺。我凝望著他專心駕駛的側臉，將他的動作姿態深深刻在心裡，因為我差點忘了，我和他之間還橫著一個問題，那張離婚協議書。我要一輩子記住他的模樣，如果他最後仍是簽了名，　可是，他應該不會簽吧！否則，他何必和我討論生孩子的事。　　「到了。」他停車，我也隨之下車。　海風迎面吹來，是淡水。他也記得這個地方，這個我們記憶珍藏的地方。　「我一直想帶妳來，可是妳假日都和朋友出門，我只好蒙著棉被在家睡覺。」他如此說道。這是個什麼烏龍呢？我體諒他工作累，他體諒我和朋友出門，就這樣我們錯過了，一次又一次的相伴。「你以後想幹什麼，可以直接說。」我惱火的盯著他。「妳也是。」他正經八百的回視我，言下之意是要我別五十步笑百步。說來也好笑，我們一直認為自己是在為對方著想，以自己的方式去體貼對方，這種自以為是卻導致了無數個陰錯陽差，一直到我開始懷疑自己不愛他，他也不愛我了，才驚覺這份愛並不是消逝，而是溶入了生活之中，自然的讓人忘了它的存在。愛情的表現，可以是黏膩、親熱、奉獻、祝福，甚至是退讓，每個人的方式不同，會導致的結果各異。我的方式是盲目的付出，他的方式是全然的關懷，乍看之下兩個人都沒錯，可是無論什麼方式，中間少了一種叫「溝通」的元素，就容易導致裂痕。我們的婚姻，就是建築在這種缺乏溝通的空中樓閣之上，嫁給這個男人五年了，我以為我漸漸的不愛他，但只是一番簡單的剖白心意，我對他所有的愛再度復活，甚而轉濃。女人會因男人長久的冷落而對愛情失望，也可以因男人一句話又對愛情充滿希望，我不想和他離婚，一點兒也不想，當初硬著頭皮簽下名，或許只是賭氣，只是要他正眼看看我。可是 ? 「那、那張離婚協議書?。」我要收回來。　「在公司裡。」他好整以暇，「公司的碎紙機裡。」這個意思是??#65311; 　「妳想離婚，等我成為亡夫時再說吧！」我估量不出他說這句話，是不是在開玩笑，不過他又騙到我的淚水。他真的很愛我，即使他沒有說過，我想如果我堅持離婚，他會放我走的，他捨不得見我難過，就像他見我掉淚又趕快摟住我一樣。倘若，是他想離婚呢？恕我自私，我是堅決不會放的，除非等我變成亡妻，同樣因為他捨不得見我難過，我自信可以留住他。「淡水整個都變了，我都快不認識了。」哄完了我，他連忙帶開話題。　「我來過，我知道有什麼景點。」「那這次就要靠妳帶路囉！」是啊！我們可以開創新的回憶，只要有我也有他，什麼時間地點都不成問題。結婚五年，我又發現了一次愛情。

I always think that those reading is unreal and it seems too far from me, but this juz hit me!! Hmm, this is the place that I always wanna go with the person I love, the one that I wanna rely on in the rest of my life:)

For some reasons, I always hav it in mind that I want a simple wedding...No huge dinner like what everyone does, no drinkin session no noisy music no waking up in the morning to make up and wait for my prince to come and pick me up...

What I want is go to Las Vegas with my fiance, sign the paper with t-shirt and flip-flops, have a very proper dinner juz for both of us, living in a 5 star hotel, traveling around the US especially coming back to FL and visit my buddies:) Then, going to Greece, Japan, and Europe(Switzerland and Italy).... last, go back to Malaysia and have dinner with parents...that will b it:) Marriage is about two and I wanna b as simple and as relaxing as I can..No rush, No busy, No worrying....Jeez, I sounds like so DESPERATELY right?? haha, but who cares? juz dreaming:)

Oh.................LOVE IS IN THE AIR............... wish everyone has a happy valentines

xoxo,

liwen

感性的我

2008-02-16T12:15:00.003+08:00

喔！好久没有用中文写blog了。。忽然间很想念在中华的日子。。人越长越大，压力就越来越多。。有时也变得有点神经质了。。

朋友告诉我说，我的样子没以前那么天真了.. 那是件好事吗?以前的我没有想过被朋友出卖，付出的感情得不到我要的结果，读书的压力！被人家说我败家，被人家说我自大等等。。反正不会是好的。。最后最爱我的依然是我的家人，我的男友。。我曾觉得他们很烦，但他们永远都支持我，永远都认为我是很棒的。。亲情是最重要的，因为他们不会离弃我。。。我是永远的小孩。。。全世界最安全的地方：）

长大后，我有一群很好的朋友。。尽管多年以后，我们还是好朋友。。因为我们没有故虑，没有不爽，没有爱情，只有友情。。朋友不需要很多，我只要几个好的。。谢谢我的朋友对我的照顾。。爱你们！！！我的妹妹总爱说我重朋友多过家人，哈哈，她现在应该知道我的苦楚吧！！她也长大了。。

我很满意我现在的一切。。我的家人，我的朋友，我的男友，和我的现状。。在美国的我学习了很多的东西。。我要让我的父母知道我不是以前的我了。。我用我的努力换来我的一切。。我的付出有了成果。。

thank god for giving me all these..i will always treasure and i will hold everything tight ...

xoxo
liwen

My saturday

2008-02-03T03:37:00.003+08:00

Arg!!!! So frustrated today!!!!! %^&*#@ Called my cousin sis today, and she told me that she miss me so so so much:) haha, I always b with her when I was little till I m so BIG now:) and with the distance we have now, we are still good and sweet:)

Talk about my school.. It has been a tuff week for me, cant manage to do my homework and the prof that look like EDISON got angry because of noone answer his questions and I was like %^&*$#... and guess what, I forgot to do my homework...sigh, what a bad week...I admit that I m EMO...

I want a bag so badly, wanted to get a LV bag but i looks old on me:) No ofence yeah:) Whatever la!! Will get something when I see something I like:)

Feel so bad bad bad!!! Hope tonight will cheer me up:o Yeah!! another PARTY day!

My thoughts

2008-01-19T06:22:00.003+08:00

This blog is for my baby boy~~~~

I was counting the day that we have been together..untill today..we been together for 2251 days which means 6 years and 2 months...Never thought that I can make it tho...

Arg....Dont have my bf with me here...How good he is here so that I can hold his big big hand:) Nth is perfect..Cant wait to see him again:)

Talk to my very EMOTIONAL sister today:) She always complain on the phone..never stop...But she is consider a good sis also...is just she likes to yell at u when she feels like she does not like u..she is spoilt i tell u :) LIM LI MEI, if u see this u should know how spoilt u r...

I have a very HOT prof for my humanities class..he looks like EDISON...and he is kinda laid back and the way he teach is interesting..Cant stop looking at him tho...yuhoo~~~ My bf will say:" U always kap chai de la" ...he always kap lui too...not bei min me also...so do I ...I dont need to give him a shit...hahaha

CHinese New Year...I have class man...That is really bad:) Cant celebrate with my family also..I bet my sister wish me home more than everyone else in the world...coz she actually do not like to go back to my grandma's home..y??? Becoz she is spoilt..She wants kakak to serve..she wants a cozy airconditioning room reserve for her..besides, she wants a place that is not so noisy for her..she is spoilt..and i know that i spoilt her too:) I have 2 sisters and i have no choice..i have to spoilt them gau gau..they mean a lot to me:) oh..so touch hahaha

k ..need to stop now.have to do work already..
ciaoz

My happy holiday

2008-01-13T04:22:00.002+08:00

Current listening: eason Chan

Fang ta tong

Gary Chao

Alicia keys

Been busy for school opening and going in and out....The only ting I doat home is SLEEPING.....poor me:)

School start... As normal, spending a lot of money on books...Not to mention how much I spent coz i m bleeding and these days always eat out:) eating like a pig:) I made a resolution that I wanna slim down before going back to Malaysia and I dont know y i still keep going out for food...arg!! better stay home so that I can save money and ON DIET!!!!!

We had a surprise party for Yen coz of his birthday. Everyone is bc for that....is so hard for me to keep that freaking secret for some weeks man!!! But i made it...here is some photos bout that day....

from L to R: Birthday boy's wife, elise and me
The birthday boy..yen

Pak keng duck by Dennis!!!

Our eyes are close!!!!

He tried to pee into his mouth

Someone interrupt!!!

Here are some videos on that day 12/29/07...but is dark tho....anyway listen to what we said..k???hahah enjoy~~

Wanna upload another 1..but it is too slow man...so..............haha...bye bye~~

this guy is shocked....and i m the one who spray all the stuff on him....

New year's eve

2008-01-01T05:27:00.001+08:00

~~~~Happy New Year 2008~~~~~~

I'm so so freaking tired:(
We had a surprise party for Yen on sat(29/12) and it was tiring yet happy:)
We played some games such as monopoly..HAHA....long time din play this game and it seems fun for me tho... while girls were playing monopoly the guys were watching basketball,arg....:( Dont really know what is going on :)

And yesterday, my sunny sunday....Went to Orlando with sen to help my Senior out...Gosh, my pretty dior flat kill me...My foot hurt and i cant stand anymore and I went to buy another pair of shoes...yeah:) Besides that, I went to Loccitane for my body shampoo...yuhoo~~

And today, new year's eve, I m heading to a dinner with my aunt and after that going to count down with my friends:) I m tired yet happy:)

took loads of pics but I dont hav it with me right now, will post asap....

HAPPY NEW YEAR to my baby boy, muacks muacks, love u the most:)

My photos~~~ my new york trip

2007-12-29T05:50:00.001+08:00

The gigantic chistmas tree...

This is what we call, NYC!!!

Clothes from ZARA, FCUK, AX, Forever 21, H&M, MANGO....

These are what I got from NY, all the good stuff:) purse, fairy, shin chan(cantonese), magazines, t-shirts.....

We are in the middle of nowhere!!!

Pretty decoration in rockefellar center...

Yes....Here I am for those photos in New York....Been busy these days, went to DMV today but their computer SHUT DOWN and I cant renew my driver license...damn it..made me wait for 1.5 hours...damn it...:(

Ok...Bought a iron fairy and I made a wish:) Hope that my dream will come true...Every girl have a dream, a dream that is simple and cheerful:)

Besides, bought a pair of Dior flat...so so so happy coz it is so so so pretty...yeah!!!

At last, me and elise went to visit her relatives in NY...They are so cute and funny.... We gave them some pressie and elise giv them some money for buying "candies" for themselves...will see u guys next time..take care

2007-12-20T04:28:00.001+08:00

Hello!! Been lazy blogging for many weeks:( Here I m to blog again coz i m so bored right now :)
Just back from NY, had a wonderful trip except the cold weather and storm:) I was spending less than I think in New York which is pretty weird...haha..let's talk about what I did from Day 1 to Day 4

Day 1
Woke up at 430am, take a shower and get ready to the airport
Reach airport at 7 something and check in a "not so heavy" luggage
Fly to NY at 9am
Get in at 1130am
Take shuttle to hotel
Check in to the hotel and the receptionist damn stupid, I told him I need a direction to Flushing and she said she will have a bellman for me:( doesnt make sense at all
Heading Flushing and had lunch
Heading subway to timesquare
Rockefello center
Timessquare
Dinner--Malaysian food(all the waitress farcking lansi)
Back to hotel by Taxi

DAY 2
Wake up at 8
Call taxi heading china town
breakfast with elise's relative
shopping at somewhere near NYU
Japanese town(real small)...many good food
Subway to Price st. (aka SOHO)
shop till crazy ( mango, victoria secret, zara, esprit, prada, AX, H&M, forever 21, Roxy.......)
Dinner (hot pot)
Back to hotel

DAY 3
Wake up at 830
brakfast at china town
visit elise's relative
34th street (MACY"S)..shop till crazy
Back to SOHO...shop
and Back to flushing for Korean food
Back to hotel

DAY4
To SOHO again, last time shopping
To japanese grocerries shop
visit elise's relative
walk around
back to hotel
heading to airport
back to tampa

Even it is short but it was really fun, I got a lot of clothes and i feel so happy!!!!
I think i get more than 10 shirts in this trip...and i got skirt...and so many japanese grocerries..will update my photo soon!!!

ciaoz

...12/02...

2007-12-04T07:01:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time I didnt post here, bc with all the hw that due, presentations and finals. After that, I m going to New York for my HOLIDAY:) Just finish talking with my dear. His voice is really sleepy yet cute. Had a 15 minutes meaningless conversation with him but I m happy:)

Ppl are bc looking for christmas gift, well, me too. Besides, going to buy something for myself as an annual gift..hahaha..:) stupid...Anyway, I've been thinking a lot these days. Watching a new HK drama, and it is kinda boring but it does let me THINK of some problems that will happen daily. The subject that I've been thinking is :" should women just go ahead to believe man 100% or not?"...What do I think is "YES, believe someone u love." Sometimes thing that u see is diff than something that u feel. I m trying hard to believe my bf ....:) I hope it works...Negative feeling pls go away!!!!

Been out of shopping for 1 week...arg!!! Act, i m not a person who love to shop a lot, sometimes I will find it bored too......But when I m in mood, my purse will DRY OUT and DIE....

k...that's it for me today!
ciaoz!

happy birthday to me

2007-11-26T10:29:00.001+08:00

yeah..happy birthday to me myself~~~ Got calls from bf, mom, dad, sis, macy , yuri, chao......got msg from friendster, facebook and msn...thank u everyone...thank u so much~~

haha..went to FRED's for my birthday...15 ppl eating dinner together..fun and joy~~~ yuhoo~~ and went shopping..didnt get a lot of stuff coz i m not in a mood to shop...got something from forever 21...yippi~~~

anyway...happy birthday liwen...20 years old...yuhoo~~

found this in ppl's profile
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous OneSpontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying

hahaha....juz wanna copy and remember..yuhoo~~

2007-11-16T06:12:00.003+08:00

Feeling: So So

These days, a lot of ppl getting married...and ofcoz i m happy for them that they found the one:) Hmm!! Marriage should be something btw 2 of us and something that speacial, aint it? Anyway, still hav a long way to go....

Today is pretty boring tho....later friends will come to my house and do assignment :) Lately my house has been a place for ppl to gather:) Ppl cook, ppl drink, ppl play, ppl study, and ppl eat at my place. Anyway, it is fun having them with me. I m glad knowing them...

Feel so angry that my bf forgot our anniversary. So mad So mad. Give him 100 notice already but he never cares..such an asshole..hate him from now...

my gloomy day

2007-11-11T01:09:00.001+08:00

Feeling: Not So Good

There is always something there for us to challege and more and more to worry about, just always tell myself that :" take it easy!" And Yes!! I thought I will b very sad and yet I m fine from the bottom of my heart... Get to know that nothing will hurt me except myself, I should love myself, my family and someone who love me:) It seems a lil bit blur here talking about something like this. The fact is I m in a fight with him again:(Anyway, I m fine.....

Talk about something happy....I m holding a "hot pot" party tomorrow since the weather is cold now and everyone wants to eat hot pot, and so here you go!!!!

Having Veterans holiday...so happy...been stressing out myself in the past couple of months......and I can see that I m pretty tuff tho....hahaha....I can get myself out of trouble....

Love should b everything or nothing at all...... :) but please do tel me that u love me if u reallydo...

My holiday plan and my dear

2007-11-08T05:40:00.002+08:00

My feeling: Frustrated & Happy

Yuhoo!! Didnt really blog for past few days because I was really busy. Y? Coz me and my hun are planning to go to NY and we both got stuck in everything. Finally, we made a decision which is going to NY on 12/14 to 12/17 and we are going to buy ticket tonight. Y we wanna go NY? Because we wanna do SHOPPING, CRAVING for Malaysian food, and also get out of FLORIDA. hahaha..is kinda crazy but my hun has been asking me to go to NY but I keep saying "SEE FIRST" coz I was thinking to go UK at the beginning and now I decided to go NY instead. My UK trip has to delay till next year if i could do it.

Tests have been going on, and i get really frustrated about that because I really hate the feeling of STRESS!!! I m expecting myself to get certain points but come to the end everything isnt right. Projects??? Damn, the BSC 1008 drive me nuts...I found myself hate science and math...:) Life is going ON...and i need to get myself out of that....

Went to Publix and bought some food....and i m really bad in cooking.....haha...my bf did say that I never cook for him and he always cook for me:) thanks ...sometimes he blame me coz I did complain his food was salty and stuff like that...hahaha..and i always didnt eat everything and leave some leftover for him and that's y he gained weight when i was back in malaysia .He blame me for feeding him too much!!!! Ok my dear, i m going to learn and I will cook for u next time when I am back... I used to cook for him when I was 15, he never complain coz we juz started dating for a year and he love me like crazy hahahaha....and now..we are both cool coz we been dating for 6 years already and 11/18 is our Anniverysary,I hope he will remember that...and the next thing is My Birthday....

I was begging him to come here next year to accompany me for some time...and I hope he is not giving me some empty promises...
K....Life is great after 12/14.....semester end and i m gonna live for my holiday!!!! yuhoo!!!!

my sunday

2007-11-05T12:10:00.001+08:00

My feeling : Happy

Current listening: Jay chou lastest album
Rating: **********

Been listen to his song since form 1..From the very 1st bf to this 1 . Seems like his song become my theme songs with my bf. When I was in form 2 , there was a friend who I really like but obviously I didnt really get a long with him for some reasons...Anyway, we did hav a good time. We both like Jay that time, and we both enjoy his second album:) It was plenty years ago yet it seems new to me. It doesnt mean that I still love him or what, is juz I m appreaciate him, I really do:) but he seems kinda far :( anyway, juz forget about that ... When I listen to Jay's song, I will think about him and I m really glad that we had a good time:) He accompany me to get over my very DOWN time...and also after that I get to know my current bf.

It's Over ...... and he has his own life and I got my own :)

Talk bout today, went to st pete for dinner with hun and hun's family with my very lovely HAPPY.....He is juz adorable....kiss him 100 times today:) cutest baby in the world.....

k.....is time for me to go to bed...has to wake up at 7 for early class..DAMN...hate it!!!!

Halloween

2007-11-03T11:04:00.001+08:00

My feeling: CONTENT

Let's talk about 10/31 halloween. I went to school and not a lot of people dress up for school but my BSC instructor did dress up as a monk, he brought us some jello which is brown color that made up by brain mold. He gave us those jello and continue our chapter 15, digestive system. I didnt really pay attention that day because I was kinda thinking about what to take in spring semester and finally I got it. Anyway, everything was done my my bestie. She helped me to register and also choose the class, so nice of her, love her much*.* Here is my class for next sem: ACG, ECO, ENC, Earth and Space, Macroeconomics. Anyway, not really satisfy with the time coz i hav to go to school everyday, damn it!!!! Ok, kinda off topic. On 10/31, I went to Ting's house for halloween party. It was full of kids. We were having fun and yeah kids love me!!!! We went to trick or treat at 7 and guess wat i m really amazed that some people gave money instead of candy. He said:" grab as much as u can"...hahaha...kids were having fun and so do I. Oh damn, I do hav some pictures but I cant upload at this moment coz i m using my laptop now and i need to download some kinda device in order to download...arg!!! NVM...next time!!

Things about today, I had 3 tests and everything was a mess! anyway, i m happy coz i go over everything already . What I hav to do now is SLEEP!! That's it!! Planning to go New York with my hun, and the purpose that we r going is to eat and to shopping..yeah...gonna take many many pics and do many many shopping~~~

I really got into fight with my bf yesterday, I was really piss!!! Sometimes I juz couldnt stand and now I m letting my feeling to be EMPTY. Honestly, we r a mess now. I have no idea anymore:(

It was pretty much my day and here I m to have this "LIFE FAITH LOVE"

ENJOY Ur Life and Love ourselves!

life, movies, and relationship

2007-10-31T07:52:00.001+08:00

It was a MESS today!!!! My feeling: STRESSED& BLUR

I slept late yesterday coz chatting with my bf for an hour or so and finally couldnt talk anymore coz i was really sleepy :) hung up the phone and sleep. In the morning at 8am, phone rang and I was really unwilling to pick up the damn phone and who called in that time must get scolded by me and guess what, HOMEDEPOT call me...a commercial call, damn damn damn!! Cant even scold..and i hung up. At 9am, phone rang again, i had a short conversation with Ting and i continue to sleep. At 10am, the phone rang again, Yuki called me for her sister who wanna work for my aunt...and i was like %^&*, why call me not my aunt??? Anyway, I talked nicely and i hung up again. The conclusion is...I didnt really get to sleep. I woke up and online and chat with my buddy PWL and we chat for an hour. After that, went to do my STA since the test is on friday, I need to get it done before the test. When I was doing my hw, someone knocked on my door and it was the BRIGHTHOUSE guy who I already made apointment with to install cable and internet in my house. And oh god, he didnt help me to fix it, the internet cant work and he juz threw me a CD and asked me to install myself. I cant even talk to him and he said:" Sign this so I can get out of here." Ofcoz, i sign it angrily and he left in 1 second. And god damn, I install the damn CD and it doesnt work at all. Cant online makes me frustrated and finally i called Brighthouse and I told the guy what was going on and he helped me to fix it. and here I am to online. Before this, I was using my laptop stealing other ppl's line to online:) Anyway, it takes my whole day and i havent do my hw yet. Tomorrow is HALLOWEEN...yuhoo~~ going to trick or treat with kidos...yuhoo~~~ and I will hav a surprise party at my house:) chao and elise are coming to join this celebration...:)

Ok ok..this is basically my day for today and I hav tons of movie to watch...so happy:)

love this HK drama

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A very good drama to watch. Good story line.My favourite all time.

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Another 1 that I watch is 奸人坚 which is not so good. Kinda boring and meaningless.

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The american drama that I love is Gossip Girl

You know you love me

xoxo

gossip girl

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Found this interesting, so copy and paste here, enjoy~

有位心理學家曾寫道，一個成熟稱得上真愛的戀情必須經過四個階段，那就是：共存(Codependent) 反依賴(Counterdependent) 獨立(Independent) 共生(Interdependent)
階段之間轉換所需的時間不一定，因人而易。
第一個階段：共存。這是熱戀時期，情人不論何時何地總希望能膩在一起。
第二個階段：反依賴。等到情感穩定後，至少會有一方想要有多一點自己的時間作自己想做的事，這時另一方就會感到被冷落。
第三個階段：獨立。這是第二個階段的延續，要求更多獨立自主的時間。
第四個階段：共生。這時新的相處之道已經成形，你（妳）的他（她）已經成為你（妳）最親的人。你們在一起相互扶持、一起開創屬於你們自己的人生。你們在一起不會互相牽，而會互相成長。
但是，大部分的人都通不過第二或第三階段，而選擇分手一途，這是非常可惜的。很多事只要好好溝通都會沒事的，不要耍個性，不要想太多要互相信任，這樣第二、三階段的時間就會縮短。和所愛的人相遇相戀是非常不容易的，不要輕言放棄。
兩人相聚是因為有緣，相知是因為有心，真的得好好珍惜這福份莫說分手不是無由，希望看到上述的四個階段，真能給大家一些啟示與領悟並惜緣。
我們會逐漸變成我們所愛的人。妳和他本來沒有相同之處，外表不相像，性格也是南轅北轍，一旦愛上了，年深日久，妳會驚訝妳的眼睛有點像他的眼睛，他的微笑也有點像妳的微笑。你們走路的步伐也有點相似，說話的語氣也愈來愈相像。
他的脖子上有一顆痣，一天，妳發現自己脖子上也多了一顆痣，原來我們會變成我們所愛的人。
妳本來喜歡腳踏實地的人，而他一向比較輕佻，但你們愛上了，他竟會不知不覺變成一個老實人，這個改變，連他自己也不曾察覺。
他本來喜歡活潑的女孩子，卻愛上了拘謹的妳，這些日子，妳竟愈來愈活潑，妳差點認不出自己。我們會逐漸變成對方理想中的人，這種改變，絕對不是刻意的。
兩個人愈愛得長久，氣質也愈來愈相近，妳曾經以為他不是妳夢寐以求的那種類型，然而，有一天，妳驚訝地發現，他已經變成妳喜歡的那種類型，妳不必再到處尋覓，他就是妳要找的人。
深深愛著一個人的時候，妳原來真的會一點一點的失去自己，為甚麼妳還會覺得快樂呢？大概是因為妳在失去的當兒，也是賺了，妳把他的氣質和他的微笑都賺回來..
幸福很單純... 所以要很單純的人才容易獲得..... 與我親愛的朋友們分享之

1st blog

2007-10-30T06:40:00.000+08:00

A brand new blog.....

I had open this blog for couple months already but I dont hav time to write my blog and i always forget the password, so here I am to start a new one. I'm not a hard working person but I will try my best to record my life and express my feeling....

Well, it's fall now. Everthing seems unstable yet. Weather is turning cool a lil bit, rain a lot, moving to new apartment , endless tests, stupid presentations, arguements with my bf, sleep deprivation..... things are going on, i should b fine.

Talk about something new about me. Just move in to a new apartment..Oh god, I can never imagine how many stuff I have, how many stuff I need to pack...Luckily I have some helpers to help me otherwise I am going to die. My aunt hired some mexican to help me to pack and move. Dont think i dont need to do anything, I still need to run up and down. It was an exhausted day. Elise and Sen came over and help me and Elise brought me the fur carpet that i really want for a long time for my "housewarming" gift, so touch..:) and she is coming to see me again today...really glad to hav her in my life..muacks muacks
After moving and stuff, need to unpack all the boxes that i hav, oh god..it takes me forever to load all the stuff and ofcoz i juz put it aside.
Will upload some photo of my new apartment tomorrow...:) It is a one bedroom, one bath, one walk in closet,living room, kittchen, laundry room, and lanai...a good size for one person.

My leg is sour and I m really tired. He called me yesterday and I was mad at him because of some stupid reasons. I knew I m stupid but all I want is juz concern and he never understand even i told him 20o times already. I dont know wat to tell him.....:( watever....this is y DISTANCE is not good..cant see cant feel cant do anything...WTH????

Really miss the time when I was in high school...Never worry about anything....Spent watever I hav, fail watever subjects I want, sleep whenever I want, eat watever I want , go KLCC aS much as I can , sing K with friends whenever we r ready , meet my friends whenever I want , spend time with my family whenever I can and see my bf whenever I want....Life is simple isnt it? I really think that if i could hav all this things around, I would be satisfied...I would be happy....

OMG...I miss MALAYSIA......WHEN CAN I GO HOME AGAIN?????

Liwen 1125

a tearful post

Outing with the G.A.N.G

15/8/2009

feeling so not right

new e -shop

my recent life

A short post

Cameron on Jan. 2009

xxx

谢谢你,我爱你...

last day in the usa

short-term thought

21 birthday and thanksgiving

trip to ringling museum,home and the mall

my 10/ 31 in sarasota, FL

my day

I L.O.V.E U

生路历程

those life I had

pictures review

pictures of 9/13

untitled

给你的言语

What a day

3rd person

孤独的映像馆

thank u

it hurts..

我的心情

I will find my way

I just want to....

...in Japan....

my recent life in malaysia

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my week

to my "readers"

cried

earthquake

my unexpected guests

P.s I love you

upload my week

Tagged by Jiunn

after test

Shopping@ Saks Fifth Avenue and Party@ Yen's home

Exhausted week and retarded pics

My saturday @ crab trap, palmetto

A week

No country for old man

发牢骚

My week

My memories

Jabbawokees.. *love-em*

Daddy's Birthday

A short post

Happy boy and me!!

poem and LaMer

For Beloved Ken :)

Old time .... Goodies

my fav

my gloomy month

My wishes

感性的我

My saturday

My thoughts

My happy holiday

New year's eve

My photos~~~ my new york trip

...12/02...

happy birthday to me

my gloomy day

My holiday plan and my dear

my sunday

Halloween

life, movies, and relationship

1st blog

Jabbawokees.. love-em